Hello all, I am on my way to WVa to take my baby to rest in his real dads family blots. I just saw all the responses here. I have a hard time speaking but I can type I guess. I just wanted to thank you. Last night was hard it was the viewing of my beautiful boy. He was only 23 , I find mornings and night are what kills me. But what helps was when my mom past he was so strong for me and strong about God and what is tragedy I have to remember there is a reason for it all. He even told me his wish is to fall in love and have kids but if not he'd be ready for God to take him home. I found out last night there was 100's of people to see him and hug us. People my age told me about how he would help them in there yard, sit and talk for hours about God and how hard life was. My baby did find life difficult. But he tried to see things in a positive light. I will come back when I can without crying to give details. I still can not believe it. I keep thinking in the mornings I had a bad dream but then realize it is real so real, then I am lost again. I know people keep saying ill see him one day but honestly I know that but I have to wait a lifetime to hold my baby again. I can't breathe is all I can describe and at times I don't want to breathe. But I have a 25 year old who has a soul if a child that still needs me. And my baby Ryan would tell me to stop crying. Tomorrow they will put him to rest in the ground and that is gonna be the hardest thing ever. Please keep praying my friends. Thank you
