Lauren! How ya doin over there? I hope better. I know how frustrating it can be. When I was planning for my wedding, I was working like crazy (to be able to pay all those places I put deposits on!
) and my maid of honor/BFF was being a jealous jerk and wouldn't help me w/anything (she has since finally gotten her BF of 11 yrs to finally marry her, so she's better now, and I've forgiven her, but nonetheless, I
needed her, and she was out of commission.) But, that did not stop me from looking for someone to share the load, and eventually I found one - my DH's step-mom. It was the most unlikely pair up, me and her, but it worked beautifully. Whereas my mom has 4 girls and 2 boys (so the marriage thing was not new to her), my StepMIL was a homemaker w/only boys, and jumped at the opportunity to help plan a "daughter's" wedding.
There is usually always someone whom we know that loves to take on all the little detail oriented stuff, if we allow them to. (I wish I were close, I'd help!) With my own wedding, once I finally let go, and allowed her to take the lead (instead of becoming bridezilla, lol, and trying to do it all myself) everything rolled so smoothly. I just told her the main details that I felt I
had to have, and let her take care of the rest. She'd contact me if I had to make a choice on certain things, but she did 90-95% of the footwork, etc for me. It turned out even more wonderful than I could have imagined, and on my big day, I needed only to show up
. I can remember when I saw everything on that day just before the wedding started, I was speechless, turned to her w/tears in my eyes, and said, "It's absolutely perfect!" We were both happy, and that entire day & for the last 10 years, whenever someone that attended my wedding gets married (or knows someone who is) I get a call asking, "who was your wedding planner?"
You can do this, girl. When you're in your little closet @ work for 8 hours, do you have a computer? You can always come talk to us!
Repeat after me: "I WILL
NOT GAIN THOSE 30 LBS BACK!!!"
It was only a minor setback. Do what you gotta do to get on track. Join a check-in for some accountability. Use a website to log your eats so you can see what you're really eating. Join WW if you think you need to for accountability. Pray (or meditate, etc) to help w/depression. Keep talking to people. I know from experience, that when I hold it in, my depression symptoms worsen. Commit to something that can help pull you out of it (an aerobics class, a personal trainer, dinner w/a friend, Bible Study/Church, etc).
Whatever can help you, do it. You got this
I'll be keeping you in prayer. Keep us posted...