Regards my long posts, I wasn't pi$$ed or anything I was just trying to explain about what I do (which I know is a little bit different.) In spite of the hardships I have had a really good life, in many ways I am very lucky. If any of you don't have one, you should try making a gratitude journal. Just write out 5 things every night that you are grateful for and keep doing that without any repeats for as long as you can. Then add it all up. Its a long list usually. Even if you are depressed, there are things that you might be grateful for anyway. For example, I'm grateful for butterflies, birds, sunshine, puppies, and flowers. That seems superficial, but I'm an artist, photographer and videographer, I get tremendous joy from seeing all of those on my hikes, runs and walks.
Two-three years ago when I started down this path of self discovery I started with my attention focused on the lousy parts of my life, I was very sick in many ways, and one of the ideas that Sandra Ahten talks about in her reasonable diet podcasts is that you can decide which direction you want to face and that can apply to all choices. For me that was choosing to walk as far as I could, weighing/counting calories, and drinking water not sugary drinks. In the beginning it was 10 minutes of slow walking. At 258 pounds and injured that was all that I could manage. Even though I'm still about 50 pounds overweight and have a twisted ankle, I am in much better shape than I was. I have a lot more information than I used to, I have Cathe (as soon as my ankle heals), I have my jogging track, my shuffle and my hrm. I also have my check-in (you guys are awesome!) I even have techniques to help me deal with the emotional scars that get all dug up when going through weight loss. Now, I know what to do in order to get my body to improve (providing I'm not on antibiotics, I still don't know what to do about that.)
sorry for the ramble