Ladies,
I thought I'd share with my fit lady friends that today is my five-year sobriety date. Sometimes it is really hard to look back at the person that I used to be, and I am frankly amazed at how far I've come. Five years ago I checked myself into rehab because if I didn't, I was going to swallow an entire bottle of pills I'd been hoarding for a few months. I was beset by panic attacks and drank constantly in an effort to keep them at bay. My marriage was over, I was shacked up in a crappy little apartment by myself, no one in my family was speaking to me, and I was in serious danger of losing custody of my kids.
The journey has not been easy but it wasn't as hard as I thought it would be. It's only ever the first drink that I avoid, and I can do that pretty easily by playing the tape in my head of what inevitably happens when I have the first (and second, third, and tenth). Today I have so much to be thankful for, including two beautiful children who are NOT growing up with a drunken excuse of a mother. An exercise fanatic, yes, but we can live with that, eh?
They just roll their eyes and talk about Cathe as if we know her personally, lol.
Anyway, happy anniversary to me!
Marie
I thought I'd share with my fit lady friends that today is my five-year sobriety date. Sometimes it is really hard to look back at the person that I used to be, and I am frankly amazed at how far I've come. Five years ago I checked myself into rehab because if I didn't, I was going to swallow an entire bottle of pills I'd been hoarding for a few months. I was beset by panic attacks and drank constantly in an effort to keep them at bay. My marriage was over, I was shacked up in a crappy little apartment by myself, no one in my family was speaking to me, and I was in serious danger of losing custody of my kids.
The journey has not been easy but it wasn't as hard as I thought it would be. It's only ever the first drink that I avoid, and I can do that pretty easily by playing the tape in my head of what inevitably happens when I have the first (and second, third, and tenth). Today I have so much to be thankful for, including two beautiful children who are NOT growing up with a drunken excuse of a mother. An exercise fanatic, yes, but we can live with that, eh?
They just roll their eyes and talk about Cathe as if we know her personally, lol.Anyway, happy anniversary to me!
Marie
