Hi Girls.
So I got in Squeeze LB and about half of Power Strike this afternoon. Fun stuff.
Tomorrow's plan is Slow Mo Back and Shoulders before or after work and the p.m. Centergy class at the gym.
So I did some soul searching of sorts while DH was driving to his mom's this afternoon....
I am now 99% sure that I will
not be training for/running the 2009 New Jersey marathon this May. This is
not something I am totally giving up on but something that I think I just need to hold off on for now. I intend to run a marathon some day and when I do you can bet your bottom that I will do it with
TNT (I love you, dad!) but now is just not my time. Simply put-I am not ready/willing to commit myself to the training. I thought I was but honestly, I am not. It's hard for me to admit it but it's true.
To be totally honest when I came to this conclusion and then thought about the coming week of work outs it felt like a HUGE weight had been lifted off my shoulders knowing that I didn't have to worry about fitting in all of those runs. This makes me even more positive that I am making the right decision. Perhaps I will end up running several times a week anyway but it will be because I WANT TO not because I HAVE TO.
That being said, I just wanted to say
thank you to all of you! You've all been a great support through my marathon trials and tribulations. I laid so much crap on you ladies and I barely even started training for the darned thing!
I almost feel like I am letting all of you down by backing out at this point but logically speaking I know it's not true. I also know that even if I back out of it 10 more times before I actually go through with it that you will all be there for me each and every time and THAT is why I come here every day!!!!!!
Hold on hold on...I'm not done yet....
I've got one more "bomb" to drop on ya's....I've also decided to cancel my STS pre-order. I was all hopped up for the series when it was first announced and for a long time afterwards but over the past several months my enthusiasm for it has withered and at this point it's all but totally dead. It has nothing to do with Cathe cause I know it will be a fantastic product! Nor does it have to do with SNM and how they handle pre-orders. I love that they offer us such a great deal, etc. I just changed my mind over time and I refuse to buy it just cause I got a good deal and then watch it collect dust in hopes that some day I'll want to complete the program. If I want it in the future, I'll just have to want it badly enough to pay full price for it or I simply won't buy it.
Phew~Now that I got that off my chest I feel alot better!
Thanks for reading my "all about me" post.
I apologize but I've run myself out of time for personals at this point. You know I am good for 'em though and will play catch up tmrw morning most likely!
Good night and hugs to all!