hi everyone
sorry i've been mia
skyy, welcome to the forum. my name is jen, i'm 24 weeks pregnant and due with my first baby in february. its a girl!
anyway, i have been thru a lot the past couple of days. as you all know, my husband and i are boht police offiers. i am on light duty due to being pregnant. tuesday afternoon i was just sitting at my desk and decided to call my husband, who was working overtime. Just to say hi.
so i called his personal cell phone and someone else answered. it was a coworker of his. he told me that he and my husband were responding to a burglary in progress and the suspects went running on foot. the deputy i was speaking to told me that their cruisers collided, they hit each other pretty good and my husband was in the hospital.
so, i had to get someone to take me there bceuase they wouldnt let me drive myself. meanwhile, i could not find out any info. i called our dispatch center and they put me on hold for forever, then said they'd call back. Of course, i was freaking out because iknew there was an accident, i was a deputy, and i already knew something happened. Yet noone would give me any info
anyway, i got to the hospital but myhusband was getting a cat scan. i saw his parnter and he spoke with me for a litle while and said my husband should be ok. i turn around and there he is, on a stretcher and a neck brace.
i went into his room and he couldnt move that well. he had lacerations on his head. he was t- boned by the other deputy. both cruisers were completley totalled. they were trying to catch the suspects along with a bunch of other units.
my husband said he didnt see the other car until it was too late. he got slammed on the passenger side, and his head hit the PASSENGER side window, from the driver side. His head shattered the glass. He told me he blacked out. He honestly thought he was going to die.
He now has a concussion and whiplash and i took wed/thur off from work to tend to him. we are both off fri/sat/sun. Mon he has to see a doc to see if he can go back to work.
I think its too early, he is in a lot of pain, sleeping a lot and cannot move that well. IF you are a police officer you have to be 100% to go back.
its just too dangerous.
i have been sturggling recently. i dont want to go back to the road, now that i will be a mommy. now, i dont want my DH to go back either. he says he does it because he has to, not becuase he wants to, that he has no other skills and the job unemployement is really bad here in Florida.
i've done a lot of crying and stressing. i'm so worried. i never want to lose him. that was a very scary thing to go thru, espeically the lack of communication. you can imagine my imagination ran wild. which did not help much at all.
i had to go to his cruiser at the tow lot and crawl thru it. those cars were so destroyed. everything was all over the place. can you imagine a pregnant lady all hunched over in the driver seat, satnding on it, trying to get his belongings from the passenger side of the car. NOT comfy at all, but since my husband couldnt move that well, i wasnt about to let him to do it.
so..its been an exhuasting, worrysome and depressing 48 hours. I know it could have been worse, but it could not have happened at all either. He is such a safe and careful driver. He has NEVER been in an accident, ever. It broke my heart to see him like that in the hopsital. i had to pick glass off his face the rest of the afternoon. I hate to see a loved one in pain and there is not much i can do for him, except make him a little more comforatbale and be around. I'm afraid to leave his side and i just want to be near him always. I'm having a hard time - i dont want either of us to do this job anymore, and now with a baby on the way, i feel even more strongly about it.
its just a struggle in my mind, becuase i'm a cop too. i know exactly what the job entails - which is good and bad. I understand it, i understand him, and i know what goes on. But because i know what goes on, it makes me fearful. I've never had these feelings before. Where he works is extra dangerous and he is always getting into things. Those poeple dont care about you - they dont care you have a family, a wife, a baby. That someone loves you and you are mroe than just an officer. Sometimes, its just so thankless. I'm really just having a hard time and i dont want him to go back out on the road.
I dont know what my problem is
I'm depressed over it, i dont like seeing him like this and i keep thinking of what could have happened or what might happen in the future and its not good. i've put myself and the baby under a lot of stress over the whole ordeal and im trying to relax. I know it could have been worse, but who's to say something int he future wont happen to him or to me?
Sorry..i'm really rambling here. Im jst having a hard time. I dont want to bother my husband abot it too much, i just want him to focus on his recovery. So i knew i could come here and let stuff off my chest and not be judged.
thanks for reading, i better go check on him. take care everyone.
