Dear Ruth, I am so sorry. Honey, don't be afraid to "lose" it. There's nothing wrong with crying your heart out when it's filled with sorrow. But remember to embrace each loving memory, to look for and to remember the smiles and laughs. When I lost my dad, the memory of his ornery sense of humor and the way he loved to laugh at his own jokes was so comforting even when tears would not stay away. You are in my heart, my thoughts and prayers.
Lovingly,
Bobbi