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;( OK....many of you posted comments to an earlier post this week by me, concerning my fiance and I. SO....here's the update.
I haven't seen him all week. lol. Which is one of our big issues..the fact that we each have our completely separate lives and our schedules pull us in different directions, resulting it being VERY hard to get together. BUT.....I called him tonight (while I sat at DS's baseball practice, nonetheless) and we got into a conversation after I told him that, "I've needed to talk to him all week and didn't want to have this conversation over the phone". Once you say that, it's like a flood gate. We also said that with DS's baseball this weekend and DFiance's schedule early next week, we're looking at a whole other WEEK before we can make the time to get together (yes, pathetic, I know, but you wouldn't believe our schedule conflicts). I just couldn't let this go on for another day, let alone a week!
After 40 minutes on the phone, we pretty much agreed on everything, which I knew we would. We're both on the same page and understand that although we are great for each other and we each have the qualities that we want and need, it's still not 100%....and that's what we want. We chatted about taking the risk of "saying goodby to eachother for the time being" with the chance to find somebody that would fit the bill for us 100%. We also agreed that PERHAPS this split will result in one of us (or both of us) seeing that WE are what we want, but we won't know that until we let US go.
SO.....long story short, although the words "the engagement is off" were not spoken, we both know that's what this is. When I see him next, I plan on giving him the ring back.
I'm sad.
Planning on burning off some steam with tomorrow's Cardio Coach Press Play Day with fellow Catheites.
Gayle
p.s. thanks for listening. There was SO much more to the conversation, but it would make for a lengthy post. I felt SO much better having sadi some of the things I said, AND having him agree with me. Made me realize it was not just ME with these feelings that something is just missing.;(
I haven't seen him all week. lol. Which is one of our big issues..the fact that we each have our completely separate lives and our schedules pull us in different directions, resulting it being VERY hard to get together. BUT.....I called him tonight (while I sat at DS's baseball practice, nonetheless) and we got into a conversation after I told him that, "I've needed to talk to him all week and didn't want to have this conversation over the phone". Once you say that, it's like a flood gate. We also said that with DS's baseball this weekend and DFiance's schedule early next week, we're looking at a whole other WEEK before we can make the time to get together (yes, pathetic, I know, but you wouldn't believe our schedule conflicts). I just couldn't let this go on for another day, let alone a week!
After 40 minutes on the phone, we pretty much agreed on everything, which I knew we would. We're both on the same page and understand that although we are great for each other and we each have the qualities that we want and need, it's still not 100%....and that's what we want. We chatted about taking the risk of "saying goodby to eachother for the time being" with the chance to find somebody that would fit the bill for us 100%. We also agreed that PERHAPS this split will result in one of us (or both of us) seeing that WE are what we want, but we won't know that until we let US go.
SO.....long story short, although the words "the engagement is off" were not spoken, we both know that's what this is. When I see him next, I plan on giving him the ring back.
I'm sad.
Planning on burning off some steam with tomorrow's Cardio Coach Press Play Day with fellow Catheites.
Gayle
p.s. thanks for listening. There was SO much more to the conversation, but it would make for a lengthy post. I felt SO much better having sadi some of the things I said, AND having him agree with me. Made me realize it was not just ME with these feelings that something is just missing.;(
