Well, folks, I did it and I got through it. It was probably the hardest workout I have ever done- and I used to lift for 5-6 hours at a time. The energy just wasn't there, but I did it, lowering my weight as needed. It was STS 16- Meso 2, Week 2, Chest Shoulders and Triceps. I did the minimum, skipping the abs and not doing anything extra (I often add other exercises that I like to the workouts, but not this time.)
You guys really helped. Janis, thank you for the kind words and the step by step instructions- that's exactly what I did, just like you told me to.
Syzygy, thank you for the empathy; by the way, did I ever tell you I love your user name? As far as a beautiful day, that actually made me laugh because where I live the day started with a lightning storm and it has been pouring rain ever since. But it is an interesting day!
Dela, you are so right- so often I tell myself "just do it anyway". Do it even if your feeling sad, sick, tired. Just do it anyway. Today I needed a little extra help from my friends, because "just do it anyway" wasn't working the way it usually does.
Vee, thank you so much for your caring and thoughtful post. I probably used the wrong term when I called it a fight. It was more a very emotional exchange between two people that care very much for each other and are trying to understand each other and make their relationship work. I ended up feeling very bad, frustrated and hurt, all things which sap both my energy and my feeling of self empowerment. It won't blow over, and it shouldn't, because honest exchanges are important, even when they are very painful. That doesn't mean that we won't be able to find a way to find equilibrium together, but it may not happen today. This is a very long process, of which today's blow up was one part.
