So stressed right now. No sleep when I did wont up feel like brain was freezing n headache? Oh gawd. My husband is being a jerk! My son is staying with us again and I think he is trying but my husband is talking down to him all the time. One minute ds thinks hubby is joking and they r then randy makes iy serous and tells him he can sleep the F&%$#@ outside! Wwhy does he hace to be so hateful to him. Hell if I had to live like that id probably drink to! Like little thing hubby got made at me for was he wants the boys to biy own tolit paper ..I agree but I was in kitchen talking? To my older ds and I ran to there br had to pee fast I holler at ds ask him to go to my br and grab tolit paper... well god forbid u guys I left tp in there br whenn hubby camee home he said" ohh so u gave them tp" no I said and explained it to him. No he don't believe me and acts pissed at me so we go to bed mad.
Then last night youngest son was told to put stuff away after dinner cause he ate last thn hubby turned big kitchen light off then ds turned back on so he can see beter. Hubby then said don't turn that back on u don't contribute here. Hen ds said yes I do I got to pay rent and he was smiling thinking Randy is joking and hubby starts saying bad stuff like well u can fing stay outside this is my house best thi g u can can do is shut ur mouth. Ds told him he diidn mean nothing by it and chill out. But hubby stil running mouth. Ds went bacck in bedroom witb other son. I heard him talking saying he juat wish he can go somewhere without feeling like he dont belong. No wonder he got into drugs ..I'm not making excises but my gawd. I know what its like to not feel wanted. His real dad never wantsd him he has nowhere to go. He wants to go to school and do better but I feel hubby is pushing him to much.
I told hubby it is a form of abuse. I think so anyway. The boy works and wanted too save money to get his own place but hubby wants him to pay 300 rent. I understand his reasons cause he don't want ds spending it on bad things plus hubby said to me before hed put it away. For him. Good idea but now he is saying if we need iit will use it. Ok but I'm stuck on if that's right. If he is gonna pay shouldn't hre be spoke to better then that? What can I do? I sware if I feel like I'm in a corner I will leave woth my son. I love my husband and if my son is not doing right then yes id agee but he seems to be trying. Idont understand how to handle this. I have no relative to help me they are all selfish and wont let ds stay with them I'm sure. Confused ! I pray all the time