Hi, Michele! I think you are already off to a good start! Keep praying and know that these difficulties can be resolved by Christmas but also know that if they aren't, because sometimes it takes awhile, anything is possible. I experience what I call the conundrum of Christmas because for all the joy, it can be a sad time too. I always worry about the poor being made to feel more poor, the lonely more lonely but as my big sister assured me good things happen too! But sometimes we have to be the instrument that helps to bring it about, maybe by reaching out to someone who is alone or getting involved when a family is sponsered for Christmas. They did that at my husband's workplace, my son's school, my daughter's German club and I can easily imagine each of those families finding it miraculous, you know? I have come to the conclusion too that God talks to me to show me the way sometimes. That's not as crazy as it sounds. I sometimes head out in the morning with my head full of angry and sorrowful thoughts because I've been dealing with alcoholism and addiction with a loved one for what seems like forever and so I'd get out there and wallow in misery. One day, I met an old man who has had a stroke and walks painfully slowly and his speech is slurred and also slow but I started stopping to talk to him and he is so wonderful! He speaks of blessings in spite of great challenges and, I don't know, he lifted my heart and helped me put perspective on my challenges, which I know are huge but are much worse if I succumb to despair and refuse to see my great blessings, which I must say, far outweigh my sorrows. The other day I headed off to Safeway and the traffic was horrible and I was tired and cranky and I heard the bellringer and groused to myself, knowing I needed to get cash back off my debit card and wasn't the Season too much, blah, blah, blah. But as I came out and told the ringer, "It must be Christmas, I am hearing bells" I smiled into the face of a young man so badly scarred it had to be hard for him to be out there, doing his bit for charity. And when he smiled back, a twisted, broken smile, saying God bless me and Merry Christmas, I walked to my car with a huge smile and the first real Christmas spirit I had felt. I guess what I am saying it is a miracle to walk the earth and difficult situations are as fleeting as wonderful ones. Whatever religion you adhere to or if you don't, there is within each of us the chance to as Gandhi said, "Be the change you wish to see in the world.". Change your mindset and you can change the world! Whether your miracle comes likely to be wrapped in pink or blue as the lovely ladies above have offered, or it's simply realizing that you can get through the holidays feeling calm and happy whatever the situation with your family, it will be OK! If it doesn't go well, or if it does, remember, life is a gift and joy and sorrow can both be present and it's possible to acknowledge the hard stuff while reaching for the joy and saying, I choose joy!
Bobbi
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Tell me, what is it you plan to do
with your one wild and precious life?
- Mary Oliver