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Carol_is_fit
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Hi everyone. I'm not usually the type to bare my soul on a public message board, but I feel compelled to write this post. I want to apologize for anything I've ever said on here that has offended anyone, or made them wonder where my heart is. I know my faults. I'm not a child - I'm 46 years old - and I know who I am, and I know my strengths and weaknesses. I'm a true Scorpio, in that I have strong opinions about everything, and I'm not shy about expressing them. I also can be intolerant and impatient with people, but that is a reflection of the perfection I expect in myself more than anything. It's difficult to "talk" in the cyber world. We can't see each other's facial expressions, and we can't hear the inflections in each other's vocal tones, and it's easy for things to be misinterpreted and intentions misconstrued. Even when we believe we're carefully choosing our words, someone may read them in a totally different way, even though that was never our intention. The posts on Alexis's "peanut" thread yesterday are the most dramatic example on here for me thus far, at least as far as I know. I also have received a couple of off-the-wall private messages for things I've said on here about Dr. Phil and something else (I've forgotten what now). These two messages came not from people who had posted to me here, but through the private message system on this forum. To be honest, I simply deleted them without answering. I felt they were unjustified, and I'm not in the habit of arguing with people in emails or on message boards. It's not mature, it's counterproductive, and I simply don't have the time. Part of my recent "transformation" has been to surround myself with positive people and positive energies whenever I can. I'm a work in progress though. We all are. Life habits are difficult and often impossible to change, but I do keep trying.
I could tell you about my life - my childhood and all the bad things that have happened to me, but these are not reasons to behave the way I often do. Bad things happen to all of us. I believe in learning from them, and then moving on. I'm not a person to dwell on my past, or the things I've gone through. I believe people and situations are placed in our path for a reason. We have a lesson to learn, and until we learn it, we will continue to repeat the behavior or the pattern. This is only my personal belief of course, but it has helped me tremendously. Still though, none of us are perfect, and when we point out a fault to a stranger, we had best first make sure there is no blame in what we have said or done as well. That kind of karma has a way of coming back tenfold, and it ain't always pretty!
Be that as it may, it's really been bothering me the entire night as I've worked that this happened yesterday. As I said, I know who I am. I know I have a quick tongue (in this case, quick fingers!), and I know I don't always think before I speak or type. It was never my intention to hurt anyone, or offend other posters. Obviously I won't be everyone's bestest bud on here, or in "real" life. That's silly and not realistic, but it bothers me to think people may think of me as a bit*ch who is unkind or intolerant of others' opinions. That is not someone I want to be.
So ... I guess this is a public apology as well as a cleansing ritual of sorts. If anyone has anything they need to get off their chest, please email me and let's talk about it. I don't think this forum is the appropriate place in which to hash anything out, but I'm offering to "talk" via email to anyone who has a problem with me and my posts, and wants to let me know about it. I promise not to bite.
Thanks for reading this, and Happy Thanksgiving to all! You can't imagine what this forum means to me. I've transformed myself in the past seven months, and all of you had more to do with it than you will ever know. Cathe's workouts have changed my life - quite literally, and I want to continue posting here.
Carol
I could tell you about my life - my childhood and all the bad things that have happened to me, but these are not reasons to behave the way I often do. Bad things happen to all of us. I believe in learning from them, and then moving on. I'm not a person to dwell on my past, or the things I've gone through. I believe people and situations are placed in our path for a reason. We have a lesson to learn, and until we learn it, we will continue to repeat the behavior or the pattern. This is only my personal belief of course, but it has helped me tremendously. Still though, none of us are perfect, and when we point out a fault to a stranger, we had best first make sure there is no blame in what we have said or done as well. That kind of karma has a way of coming back tenfold, and it ain't always pretty!
Be that as it may, it's really been bothering me the entire night as I've worked that this happened yesterday. As I said, I know who I am. I know I have a quick tongue (in this case, quick fingers!), and I know I don't always think before I speak or type. It was never my intention to hurt anyone, or offend other posters. Obviously I won't be everyone's bestest bud on here, or in "real" life. That's silly and not realistic, but it bothers me to think people may think of me as a bit*ch who is unkind or intolerant of others' opinions. That is not someone I want to be.
So ... I guess this is a public apology as well as a cleansing ritual of sorts. If anyone has anything they need to get off their chest, please email me and let's talk about it. I don't think this forum is the appropriate place in which to hash anything out, but I'm offering to "talk" via email to anyone who has a problem with me and my posts, and wants to let me know about it. I promise not to bite.
Thanks for reading this, and Happy Thanksgiving to all! You can't imagine what this forum means to me. I've transformed myself in the past seven months, and all of you had more to do with it than you will ever know. Cathe's workouts have changed my life - quite literally, and I want to continue posting here.
Carol
