Cyn, (Great name by the way) Everyone is so different and different people get motivated in different ways. What I mean is, some people do better by working out at home, others need to get out and go to the gym to get motivated. It sounds like you used to be pretty active but either outdoors or in the gym. Have you ever tried working out at home?? Do you think you'll like it?? Can you afford a gym or is that out of the question (I know you said you couldnt afford a Personal Trainer)?? There is a few great websites for home videos in all fitness levels. One is videofitness.com has reviews of videos etc. Another is collagevideo.com, I have their catalog and its great. Tons of all kinds of vdeos and all types and levels. As for the shedding fat FAST, there is no such thing! Unfortunately, Safe, effective fat loss takes time and lots and lots of hard work, you did it before, I have no doubt you will do it again! Judy