kblover
Cathlete
Hey All,
Just wanted to talk. I have been in a depression for the past couple of weeks and while I have been exercising, I haven't been eating well, so my weight increased, which only helped to heighten my depression.
I think it came from a mixture of things...guy troubles (which I posted about before), job worries/troubles, moving decisions, construction projects at home, guilt for so many things...I just let everthing come over me like a tidal wave.
I have a blog where I am trying to track my weight loss and I have totally ignored it so I could sink into depression.
I have one friend, however, who refuses to let me be my own worst enemy I won't embarrass her, but I think she knows who she is...She has an incredible story of her own and is my inspiration. She has been listening to me, and my excuses, and giving me advice and not allowing me to sink deeper.
Up until right this moment, I just wanted to sink under my covers and not come out. Then she sent me an email this morning and what I was doing seemed to click. I am adding my own dirt on my head by allowing myself to sink further into my problems.
I thought of her site and all her motivational postings. We all have problems and some are worse then others. The only thing we can control is our reaction to them. I was giving in to them and choosing to see no way out. People, like Sandra, were pointing the way, but I only wanted to see the darkness. Why? cause to get to the light required effort that I felt I no longer had to give.
I am the kind of person who goes to extremes and I want to see extreme results, so when I don't, I give up, and looking toward that light, I only saw all the work. But I don't have to jump from the bottom of my pit to the top, despite the fact that is what I have told myself in the past. I can climb, one foot at a time. It is not what I want to do, patience is not in my blood, but it is a skill I need for life.
I guess I just needed to talk about all of this and also say thank you to Sandra, as well as all of you, for listening to me vent once again (this isn't my first depressed time).
I hope to have fewer and shorter times of depression as I learn to live my faith, trust my God, and keep my friends.
"Most of the important things in the world have been accomplished by people who have kept on trying when there seemed to be no help at all." Dale Carnegie
Cheryl
Just wanted to talk. I have been in a depression for the past couple of weeks and while I have been exercising, I haven't been eating well, so my weight increased, which only helped to heighten my depression.
I think it came from a mixture of things...guy troubles (which I posted about before), job worries/troubles, moving decisions, construction projects at home, guilt for so many things...I just let everthing come over me like a tidal wave.
I have a blog where I am trying to track my weight loss and I have totally ignored it so I could sink into depression.
I have one friend, however, who refuses to let me be my own worst enemy I won't embarrass her, but I think she knows who she is...She has an incredible story of her own and is my inspiration. She has been listening to me, and my excuses, and giving me advice and not allowing me to sink deeper.
Up until right this moment, I just wanted to sink under my covers and not come out. Then she sent me an email this morning and what I was doing seemed to click. I am adding my own dirt on my head by allowing myself to sink further into my problems.
I thought of her site and all her motivational postings. We all have problems and some are worse then others. The only thing we can control is our reaction to them. I was giving in to them and choosing to see no way out. People, like Sandra, were pointing the way, but I only wanted to see the darkness. Why? cause to get to the light required effort that I felt I no longer had to give.
I am the kind of person who goes to extremes and I want to see extreme results, so when I don't, I give up, and looking toward that light, I only saw all the work. But I don't have to jump from the bottom of my pit to the top, despite the fact that is what I have told myself in the past. I can climb, one foot at a time. It is not what I want to do, patience is not in my blood, but it is a skill I need for life.
I guess I just needed to talk about all of this and also say thank you to Sandra, as well as all of you, for listening to me vent once again (this isn't my first depressed time).
I hope to have fewer and shorter times of depression as I learn to live my faith, trust my God, and keep my friends.
"Most of the important things in the world have been accomplished by people who have kept on trying when there seemed to be no help at all." Dale Carnegie
Cheryl