Daily Check-in
I am just checking in to let everyone know that I am officially withdrawing myself from the 12-week challenge. It has been a total disaster for me. I never imagined that I would ever weigh 200 pounds again, and my weight is holding steady at 216 pounds even after my cycle. I challenged my way up to a size 18 from the size 14 I was wearing when I started this little adventure. I do not regret the experience at all because I have learned a powerful lesson. Restriction leads to rebellion. Anything that causes me to focus on protein (especially animal protein) and restrict carbs will trigger a fit of rebellion with my eating. This type of challenge puts me in that bodybuilding frame of mind and leads me to eat more protein and less carbs (similar to BFFM or BFL). I thrive in high carb heaven. Every time I start focusing on the scale and trying to lose weight through self-effort, I end up gaining more. I am out of control with my eating again. Thankfully, I am not binge eating again, but I am sliding down a slippery slope and know that I will end up in that pit if I do not make some radical changes soon. I got stressed out at work this week and ate a candy bar to calm myself down. It would have been 3-4 candy bars a few years ago, but still. Now that emotional eating has reared its ugly head again, I must confront it head-on before a lapse turns into a relapse and ultimately a total collapse. I am giving up for my sanity and my health. I decided not to order BFFM, but I found something else to order with that money that I believe will be perfect for me. I plan to keep checking in just to be a cheerleader for everyone. If we do a generic check-in after the challenge is over, I will be a part of that. Getting to know all the challengers has been my delight in this experience. I am glad I have still this check-in no matter what I do.
Susan, I am praying for you and your furry friend. I am so sorry.
Blessings,
Heather B.
“So whether you eat or drink or whatever you do, do it all for the glory of God” (1 Corinthians 10:31 NIV).