OK, cheetahs, I'd like to get your opinions on something that is bothering me. I hesitate to post about it b/c it seems -- well, it IS -- extremely trivial when some folks here have loved ones battling cancer, but I do feel sick about it and I'm not sure if I'm overreacting/being emotional.
Last year, I started skiing with a small group of friends. Of the four of us, the two guys were experienced skiers/snowboarders. We went on about 3 trips to VT last year, and I really enjoyed it so I decided to invest in all the gear, anticipating that there would be many group trips to come. This year, we went to Colorado over Christmas. In the meantime, this past summer, one guy and the other girl (my best friend) became a couple and by Christmas, they had become serious. Naturally, the friendships all have to shift a little bit as they do couple things on their own--understandable. In January, she surprised him with a ski trip to Maine for just the two of them. They went but had some problems with the hotel heat and staff rudeness; after complaining, they were granted a two-night stay in a larger place. She invited me and the other guy in our "ski group." It was for this weekend - Thursday and Friday nights. I said yes but then realized I could not take a personal day today because we have parent conferences. I was disappointed, but for some reason, I had been under the impression that they were GIVEN this weekend, not that they CHOSE it. Yesterday, during work, my friend and I were exchanging emails and I commented that it was too bad they hadn't been given a weekend where all four of us could go, so we could have one more trip this season. She told me that this is the weekend Tim PICKED because it is the last available weekend before softball starts in early March. (He coaches.) That was a surprise. I asked her how come he was able to go away w/ us for St. Pat's last year. She said she didn't know - maybe it was different this year because he just bought a house. I'm not sure how that correlates to his softball schedule, but I was kind of taken aback by the whole thing. They are going skiing again next weekend with Tim's entire family, but we have no plans to go anymore this year as a group. It is a bad year financially, I've been told. (BTW, earlier this year, there was talk of doing another St. Pat's trip - I never heard softball mentioned.) So, I'm just kinda hurt that, if they had a choice of weekends, why didn't they check to see if I could go? And couldn't they have tried to switch it - even to a day a later? That would've worked for me. I mentioned yesterday (during the email exchange) that I felt sad and a little left out, and she responded with: "It won't be the same without the fourth stooge." As ridiculous as it may sound, my feelings are terribly hurt by this. I came home yesterday and sobbed my eyes out.
Now I'm wondering: am I being too emotional and taking it personally when I shouldn't? I have been on this Amnesteem (Accutane) for almost a month, and I wonder if that is affecting my mood or making me more sensitive.
Thoughts?
