I have two brand new balance discs and pumps and two brand new yoga blocks if anyone would like to purchase them. I'm making some changes in my life. My surgery is scheduled for December 11 and I'm having my uterus, tubes, cervix and left ovary removed. Although my doctor doesn't believe its anything cancerous, there are some things being done that are normally done to stage for cancer. She hasn't told me this, but I Googled what "peritoneal washing" is and its where the put saline solution in the peritoneal cavity to look for cancer cells. I pray that its not and I've had this condition under surveillance for 5 years and there's never been anything that hinted at malignancy, including two panels of tumor markers. I'm looking at a 6-8 week recovery and even after that, it still takes time for the body to heal on the inside. My goal is to find work as a CNA and now I'm not sure how that's going to work as being a CNA is non-stop on your feet, sometimes 12 hour shifts, lots of physical work and right now I need to get back to work as soon as I can. There's also the uncertainty about the situation with my house as the note is due in full, to the tune of 500K on January 1. My husband says he can file Chapter 13 bankruptcy by himself and put off a foreclosure for a year. I get scared to think about being 3 weeks post op and not having a place to live. When I visited my mom and stepdad for my birthday, they have set up a spare room with a day bed in case I need to stay with them. I would need help getting my things out as I can't lift anything heavy for 6 weeks, heavy as in 10 pounds. Its gut wrenching to think about because I would have to leave Luca behind. But somewhere I have to draw the line and losing the house is that line. Its not like there was illness or something that caused us to fall behind on payments. It was my husband chasing after this Philippine gold fantasy and not wanting me to work. A few days ago, I cancelled my Lift, Move, Restore preorder and have been doing Pvolve because its tough but doesn't leave me wiped out. Its funny how your mental and emotional state can affect your workout because last summer, I was pumping weights and blasting through STS 2.0 rotations and now I'm just glad to keep moving everyday. If anyone wants to buy the balance discs and yoga blocks please PM me. Thank you.