Laura,
You have every right to express your frustration. Our feelings are our own, no need to feel ashamed.
It does actually sound like there was a problem with your order, and if you hadn't acted on the red-flag event of seeing higher-number orders going out ahead of yours, then you wouldn't have known that.
I'm eagerly awaiting mine. I preordered very late in the game, and know i'm at the end of the list, and so I don't have any angst over when I placed it in relation to when I get it.