Hey Girls!
Finally getting a little down time. We went shopping again today plus my mom had to drop off her car to get a car started installed, then I worked out, got showered and just got home again! Im pooped! Not to mention the fact that I have been up since 5:45! I think I will be in bed early tonight!!!!
Man, I don't know what it is with me and my mom but I don't think we click very well. Im not sure if its me, her or both of us. If I am in a super good mood, I can tolerate her to no end but if PMS is comming, then I have to bite my tongue. She doesn't stop when she is here and she is a great help but sometimes I wonder why she says some of the things she says...should I just ignore her? Then after she leaves, I wonder how I treated her and if I were mean.Basically, if I say white...she says black. Last week she asked what DH was buying me for christmas and I told her I asked for a coat...whatever I would have said she would have said "yeah, like you need that" and of course thats what she said. Then I have to explain why I need a new coat. Today I decide to have turkey wraps for supper, with real turkey but she wants me to get ham slices! Its not her money...why is she so concerned? Does she still look at me like Im a child? She often makes comments about not being able to afford things but she doesn't know how much money is in our bank act. All she does know is that she loaned us money when DH was laid off a couple of yrs ago to pay off some debt and b/c I haven't paid the full amount in full, she thinks Im broke? Never mind the fact that I am giving her $250 bi-weekly towards the loan. Just the little things set me off, like today she tells me about a girl I knew growing up that is having another boy and its mistake #4...Im like...how can every one of your kids be a mistake? You can't possibly be that dumb can you? And she says..."oh yes, they were all mistakes" Im kind of like WHATEVER!
Anyway, I always end up feeling awful when she leaves b/c she means well and I know my mom is not going to be around forever but it just seems like whatever I do, there is a better way of doing it. I guess she is just trying to make her suggestions but I don't think she as ever really commented me on something. If something is good, then she as a recipe to share that is similar, if Im to small, then Im sick, if Im bigger, then shes laughing at me cause she knows I hate it.I don't think she realizes that I have been on my own for 10 yrs. My head just hurts from all the comments and explaining Ive done.
And if we ever get into it, its always my fault. Its never her...it doesn't matter what she said that ticked me off, its the fact that I have a short fuse and thats why we are fighting. Shes the kind of person who didn't do anything wrong and she isn't going to meet you half way, forget it, not gonna happen. So I end up apologizing when really we wouldn't be arguing if it wasn't for her comment after everything I do or say.
Anyway....I HAD to vent!!!!
Amelia** I have a ww scale and the only time mine as fluctuated that much was the other week when I had Indian food. Up 5 lbs almost, then it was gone again the next day. Other then that, Im pretty on target and when the scale goes up a little its usually a gradual increase and then it will come back down the same way. Id say weigh yourself in the morning and start from there.
Stacy** I was wondering how one of your kiddies seemed to be escaping the stomach bug!!! I guess she didn't, poor thing. I wouldn't worry to much about working out right now, save your energy for the important people that need you.
My workout today was GS B,S&B and a 5 mile run.
Ill be back later gang!!!
Lori
