fitmomofone
Cathlete
Shelley, I'm new to the forums (3/22), but I believe that you answered a question for me at one time, so I thought I would respond to you. I hope you are feeling better today...it sounds like you have made many wonderful friends here who love you. I understand your pain. Although I was never diagnosed as bulimic, I used to have terrible bulimic tendencies. Mostly when I was younger...when I overate, I just hated myself...that is what drove the binge. I remember being in law school, where I was miserable, and binging on a package of WHITE pita bread that I found in the fridge with almost an entire stick of margarine. Then there was the time I purged during exam time when I "borrowed" a handful of my roommates diuretics and took them and almost passed out in the shower, then went to school to take a final. My eyes were so dry that my contacts kept sticking to my eyeballs...I spent most of the exam in the bathroom. People were sure that i had stashed study materials in there and that i was cheating.....I'm still obsessed with looking a certain way, like Jennifer Aniston or someone...a goal that I will NEVER attain. All I can say, is, try to love yourself...try to be good to yourself. You have a daughter? who loves you, who needs you.....and friends who value you, because you deserve it. IF all else fails, get professional help maybe (maybe you've been there already, I don't know). Anyway, you can always reach out to me...I'll listen, and I"ll try to help. Take care.....