Hi Kim! I'm a Kim, too!
I lost 110 pounds (235 to 125-127) in 15 months and have maintained for 6 months (lifetime to go!) using good nutrition/portion control and consistent exercise. My cholesterol, triglyc., BP, sugar levels, etc., which were all once high are now in the normal and healthy range (was at the Dr. two months ago and he said bloodwork was "immaculate!")
I've been a vegetarian for 23 years (and yes, a very heavy one!)and also a pain in the neck picky eater--I knew a specific eating program wouldn't work for me. I also wanted new habits I could have for a LIFETIME, knowing that would be a key in my longterm success. Like I said, I used portion control (as opposed to when my portions were OUT of control!), and I started exercising using WATP tapes, barely being able to do the one mile at first. All I did was keep plugging away, not letting myself get discouraged when I couldn't all the things all the women in exercise videos do! Have you ever seen The Firm videos where they say "beginners follow Libby?" I couldn't even do that. It was VERY discouraging sometimes, but I'm not stretching the truth when I say I saw improvements with my health and fitness each week. They may have been small victories--an extra pushup here, one more leg press on the Fanny Lifter there--but small victories can add up bigtime!
I had many setbacks along the way. I'd pig out and get so angry with myself that I'd eat more.. I get in an argument with dh and head right to the fridge (still do!). The one thing that kept me going was literally repeating to myself that falling off the horse (in this case my lifestyle change of healthy eating and consistent exercise) meant getting right back up and on! I refused to let one day of poor eating choices ruin my efforts. This was not easy. Many times I cried and wondered if it was all worth it. Well, let me tell you now that I'm on the other side: It was worth every single second of hard work!
I'm healthier than I've ever been in my life! I can take my staircase two steps at a time when before I couldn't walk up the stairs without being seriously out of breath. Little things I notice like being able to get up out of gushy chair just using my leg strength. It is a whole new life. I'm not one to judge a person who's overweight--society does a good enough job of that. I believe body image and self image are two very separate things. Size does not equal beauty, and I love a person whether they be 100 or 1000 pounds. But strictly speaking as someone who went from very unfit to someone who can out-pushup her dh}( I believe I am much better off, both physically and emotionally, at my current weight and fitness level. And it sure doesn't hurt that my 19 year old neighbor called me a hottie (I'm 37!!!)
I'm sorry this is so long, Kim. I don't know what your goals are, but I wish you all the luck in the world as you reach for them! I am tangible proof that what may seem unattainable certainly is not!
*edited for spelling errors