Marla I'm so sorry, I have lost 3 dogs, a cat, a bunny and a horse in my lifetime. The pain in grief is without words. Sometimes when we lose an animal we are made to feel like we shouldn't have so much grief by others around us. A stereotype that it's just an animal. However many of us love our animals just as much as a family member and sometimes more, the unconditional love we get from our animals is almost incompariable to anything else. So grieve, cry, remember, write a poem, know this process is different for everyone. It took me months to feel at peace and in the case of my horse even longer. The pain will ease and memories will become less painful and more joyful, for Hunter is in a better place and I know for a fact he's in great company.........what a beautiful boy. Big (((HUGS))) know many of us understand. Godspeed Hunter Rebecca