>My heart goes out to you; I hope you find comfort somehow.
>
>Your situation really resonates with me because we have a new
>(kinda) cat, a super-sweet beautiful gray and white cat that
>appeared on our doorstep one day, grooming herself in a pool
>of sunshine. She refused to leave, so we took her inside
>(despite our two aging dogs) and she's become a real part of
>the family. But the debate right now is whether to let her out
>sometimes, which my BF advocates, but I really am putting my
>foot down that she has to be an indoor cat. Your experience
>only reinforces my thinking!
>
>Blessings to you. The good does out-weigh the bad, I firmly
>believe that. When bad things happen in quick succession, it
>sometimes doesn't seem that way. Losing loved ones is beyond
>tough, but you will emerge back into the good and into the
>light!
>
Thank you for the encouragement. Please, Please, Please...if your kitty is not harrassing you to get out of the house, DON'T DO IT! They actually like staying in. The only reason, and I mean the ONLY reason I did not bring my beloved outside kitty in is because my indoor kitty absolutely would not get along with him. That is what is hurting me so much now. I am actually kinda angry with her for that reason, if you can believe that! I honestly feel that my kitty was especially at danger because he had become domesticated and potbellied, lol...leaving him maybe not so much "on alert". Plus, he was mostly black and I know that did not help much. But please, don't fool yourself into thinking that your kitty needs to "get out sometimes". They are perfectly happy indoors. I have a little window perch for my inside kitty and she loves to sit by the open window and sniff the air. Believe me, she leads a VERY comfortable, AND SPOILED life.
Yesterday hubby and I stayed in bed and cried all day. I wanted to all day today but he made me get up. Without him I don't know where I would be. The guilt with this kitty's death is unbearable. I've put animals down before but that was more of a mercy thing, albeit the grief was still hard. But I just feel like I played a role in killing my precious "Moo-Moo". In time, I guess that will fade.
I am putting this link for you all to see him.....I think it will work......he was so playful and wonderful, I can't even describe it in words....Rest in peace "moominator" (he always tore stuff up, lol)
http://www.tabbytracker.com/cat.php?id=18527