morningstar
Cathlete
I'm really glad you read my post, Mercurial. Given your age, body type, diet and the fact that you exercise insanely, I don't believe you are at risk for Type 2 diabetes, but I do think you need to get checked out ASAP for Type 1. You need to mention to your doctor the blurred vision, if you're getting extra sleep, the sudden weight loss of 3 lbs, and most importantly, the extreme thirst. You said that you are having everything low sodium except a TV dinner each night. Those are high in sodium but not that high!
With regard to a nutritionist, I don't actually believe that is your most urgent need, although it wouldn't hurt. Your issue isn't so much with eating the right foods and how much food you eat so much as the emotional issues behind what food and eating represent to you. Eating disorders and over-exercising are like any other addictions - they are symptoms of emotional distress. A nutritionist wouldn't have the first clue as to how to handle those issues - and they shouldn't even be trying. Learning about the best food to eat is putting the cart before the horse- you need to be willing to eat at all first. I could write an enormously long post about how to eat healthily and I would be wasting my time- and so would that nutritionist. Right now you are in a triage situation and you need to deal with the most urgent issues first: just eating, period.
Where are your parents in this? Can they help you financially with some of these costs, if you were to tell them the truth, or even if you didn't? I worry that you seem so independant. I was and am that way as well, and it was a big factor in my not seeking help for 20 years and actually leading a very lonely life. Independence is in many ways a positive quality, but can lead to isolation and the feeling that you can never seek support when you need it.
With regard to a nutritionist, I don't actually believe that is your most urgent need, although it wouldn't hurt. Your issue isn't so much with eating the right foods and how much food you eat so much as the emotional issues behind what food and eating represent to you. Eating disorders and over-exercising are like any other addictions - they are symptoms of emotional distress. A nutritionist wouldn't have the first clue as to how to handle those issues - and they shouldn't even be trying. Learning about the best food to eat is putting the cart before the horse- you need to be willing to eat at all first. I could write an enormously long post about how to eat healthily and I would be wasting my time- and so would that nutritionist. Right now you are in a triage situation and you need to deal with the most urgent issues first: just eating, period.
Where are your parents in this? Can they help you financially with some of these costs, if you were to tell them the truth, or even if you didn't? I worry that you seem so independant. I was and am that way as well, and it was a big factor in my not seeking help for 20 years and actually leading a very lonely life. Independence is in many ways a positive quality, but can lead to isolation and the feeling that you can never seek support when you need it.