I have been broke throughout my entire youth.. clients I meet that are in college tell me about trips around the world and I could never even fly to florida for a weekend!
I had *just* gotten to a point in my life where things were looking good.. my credit (despite being broke and struggling) was perfect grade A credit. I had a job that i could finally rely on to bring me "X" every week and I had just gotten a loan consolidation to reduce my monthly debt and open my lines of credit.. seems perfect eh?
Then I figured I could get an apartment (I was living
very cheaply with a relative), so I got a beautiful apartment that I absolutely loved!
Roommate of course (I wasn't t
hat well off yet
I later got some beautiful furniture and I was planning on gradually furnishing the whole place and making it "home", maybe even the following year have the money to have the place to myself.
Then it happened overnight: I "lost" my job and my paycheck got cut in half (or less).
Subsequently I couldn't afford my modest apartment I shared with a complete stranger. The gas bill (which im still paying on it and I moved out in the spring!) was getting out of control.
I used my paid off credit cards to get me though until things "got back to normal".. but they never did.
So here I am, living with relative (a little pathetic at my age)..
-apartment is gone
-furniture is gone (sold for peanuts)
-credit cards are maxed
-more debt than before (add loan for consolidation)
-paycheck is still less than half what it used to be
Id say I got hit, thankfully I have no kids to care for or a house to have repossessed.
I cancelled my last two dentist cleanings, Im driving a broken car with faulty vent (no heat sometimes) and every other month get harassed by debt collectors. I get caught up and then the $$ just doesn't come in and then I get all those fees all over again.
Its embarassing as all hell. Ive *always* been very reasonable and responsible and this hurts my ego a bit.
Granted I was always broke and never had much, but the
bills got paid.
I had a lot of projects I wanted to start, both for perosnal fulfillment and for business enhancment, but everything has been on hold for over a year now, and might never happen.
I even had to go two weeks without protein powder!! (grr
)
I quit a few social things I did regularily cuz I couldn't afford to pay the dues, I was embarassed!
My entire life plans have been completely turned upside down.. I didn't want to spend the 'best years of my life' with no money and nothing to do (everything costs money).
I had goals and ambition and I have to put it all on hold until I have the money to pursue. Once I can get ahead enough to breathe, then I will consider what I need to secure the next months bills,
then I might be able to think about all the rest :-\
Its very frustrating but yes, I feel for you all!