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I’ve been hesitating with posting this, hoping that it might go away. Since it hasn’t, I decided to see if any of you guys can help. Here’s a little (okay, a lot!) of background info.
The last year has been very stressful for me. We are in the process of remodeling our house to put on the market mid-Feb. It is a totally mess, which for an OCD person like myself is almost unbearable. Things are moving slowly and that is also frustrating. Basically, we are living out of one bedroom, the kitchen and part of one bathroom. No bathroom sink, no closet storage, no place to get ready, etc. My husband will move in a month, leaving me to deal with selling the house and finding a place to live until the end of the school year in May.
My job is also very stressful. Seems like each day it’s one more responsibility, one more after-school required function, more rude parents, etc. I’ve been at my current school for eight years and have worked hard to earn my reputation. Moving will mean I will have to start all over again.
I want to move though. It’s not that. I know the move is the right choice. This makes my feelings confusing. How can I be depressed over something that really is good?
I spent all of last year figuring out my stomach issues. I had six months of a recurring yeast infection and about nine months of stomach problems, which turned out to be a bacterial infection. Now I think that those things were caused by stress.
The last few months have been extremely stressful. I pretty much had a nervous breakdown in Nov. and called my gynecologist and she called in Xanax. It helps some, but I’m freaked out about getting addicted to things. I can’t seem to get motivated to do anything. Getting up is tough. When I get home from work, all I want to do is get in bed. I’m not sleeping very well. The things I typically love to do and that help with stress don’t even interest me. (Books, working out, walking, etc.) My eating is pretty clean, except for these crazy sweet binge I go on to make myself feel better. Not working out and these binges really makes me depressed.
I have this feeling of not being good at anything because I feel overwhelmed and stressed out.
I think about other’s problems and how mine seem so small in comparison. That even makes me feel bad!
I just don’t know what to do. Should I see someone? If so, who? Should I try some other sort of medicine? I’ve always been a “deal with your own issues” kind of gal. I’m a loner and don’t share things with the few friends I have. I’ve told my mom, who tries to help but gives me the “It will be okay and over soon” speech. I’ve talked to my husband, but I don’t tell him much because I don’t want to add any more stress to his world right now. He can tell though and is doing sweet things for me. Helps some, but this feeling is still there. I KNOW that things will be different by the summer, but knowing that doesn’t help with the current situation.
Any advice? Sorry for the rambling. Can you tell I’ve been keeping this pent-up for some time?!
Thanks.
The last year has been very stressful for me. We are in the process of remodeling our house to put on the market mid-Feb. It is a totally mess, which for an OCD person like myself is almost unbearable. Things are moving slowly and that is also frustrating. Basically, we are living out of one bedroom, the kitchen and part of one bathroom. No bathroom sink, no closet storage, no place to get ready, etc. My husband will move in a month, leaving me to deal with selling the house and finding a place to live until the end of the school year in May.
My job is also very stressful. Seems like each day it’s one more responsibility, one more after-school required function, more rude parents, etc. I’ve been at my current school for eight years and have worked hard to earn my reputation. Moving will mean I will have to start all over again.
I want to move though. It’s not that. I know the move is the right choice. This makes my feelings confusing. How can I be depressed over something that really is good?
I spent all of last year figuring out my stomach issues. I had six months of a recurring yeast infection and about nine months of stomach problems, which turned out to be a bacterial infection. Now I think that those things were caused by stress.
The last few months have been extremely stressful. I pretty much had a nervous breakdown in Nov. and called my gynecologist and she called in Xanax. It helps some, but I’m freaked out about getting addicted to things. I can’t seem to get motivated to do anything. Getting up is tough. When I get home from work, all I want to do is get in bed. I’m not sleeping very well. The things I typically love to do and that help with stress don’t even interest me. (Books, working out, walking, etc.) My eating is pretty clean, except for these crazy sweet binge I go on to make myself feel better. Not working out and these binges really makes me depressed.
I have this feeling of not being good at anything because I feel overwhelmed and stressed out.
I think about other’s problems and how mine seem so small in comparison. That even makes me feel bad!
I just don’t know what to do. Should I see someone? If so, who? Should I try some other sort of medicine? I’ve always been a “deal with your own issues” kind of gal. I’m a loner and don’t share things with the few friends I have. I’ve told my mom, who tries to help but gives me the “It will be okay and over soon” speech. I’ve talked to my husband, but I don’t tell him much because I don’t want to add any more stress to his world right now. He can tell though and is doing sweet things for me. Helps some, but this feeling is still there. I KNOW that things will be different by the summer, but knowing that doesn’t help with the current situation.
Any advice? Sorry for the rambling. Can you tell I’ve been keeping this pent-up for some time?!
Thanks.
