Hi Kay - Your post touched my heart! I know what you mean about weight loss being one of the toughest journey's you have undertaken. I know for me it was because I used to use food to cope and once it was taken away, I had no other crutch (except for exercise and weight loss goals). In a nutshell I found myself spiralling into one eating disorder after another and weight loss became my only goal. I wasn't ready to face why I ate, overate or used weight to bring a sense of purpose and fulfilment in my life. I began to feel like a failure everytime I binged but I couldn't avoid the binges because I was either physiologically starving or emotionally deprived. It set up for a viscious cycle. All I can say is that weight loss can be a noble goal but it should be for the right reasons. Losing weight is a great way to boost your self-esteem, appearance etc. but it can't change you as a person inside or solve all your problems. You need to eventually sort out all those issues that lie beneath your struggle with diet etc. If like me you find yourself having to deal with all those emotional reasons as you lose the weight, then don't fight it. You will come out feeling stronger. It may take you longer than an average person but its worth it. I would also like to add don't starve. No matter how little or perfectly I ate or how many hours I exercised, the weight took its own sweet time coming off. So there is really no point in taking drastic measures. They backfire in any case. There is no quick fix. The weight will come off eventually as long as you fuel up wisely (not too many empty cals) and adequately for most of the time. A few bad days here and there is human and inevitable. Even once you lose the weight your life will not be filled with perfect eating days and you will ride the 10lb here and there roller coaster. So never deprive yourself because how you eat while losing weight is truly a lifestyle. You eat that way for so long that it becomes a habit. I either starved or dieted for so long that I still find it hard to eat normally and I still have to control binging because of all the deprivation I put myself through. Long post but hope something somewhere helped you. Sending you loads of good luck and hugs. You will do this but don't stress too much about it and most importantly, get on with your life while it is happening. Take care.
PS - I love cinnamon rolls too! I had one yesterday morning and it was worth it! With Cathe you can afford a few indulgences. Food is one of life's pleasures too. Its not worth ruling that out.
PS - I love cinnamon rolls too! I had one yesterday morning and it was worth it! With Cathe you can afford a few indulgences. Food is one of life's pleasures too. Its not worth ruling that out.
