Morning all,
I'm feeling uber amounts of frustration. I feel like I'm the perpetual fat girl trying to get skinny. I know this is a ridiculous time in my life to try to be maintaining any sort of normalcy much less fitness, but I'm just annoyed. I wake up each morning with a new determination to eat well and work out but by noon, I'm tempted and fail. Monday I did great with a banana and clif bar for breakfast, grilled chicken salad for lunch, and then since were STILL at the mall, I ended up succumming to a taco bell grilled stuft burrito! Then yesterday a similar thing happened. I started out great with granola but then after Ellie's tooth thing (which went fine) we stopped by "my" house and our friends who are renting it were moving in and I just lost it and ended up doing taco bell again!!! At least for dinner I did subway and did it well. But, I just don't feel like I can get through one stinking day of eating well and remaining consistent.
I wouldn't be so upset if I were at a normal weight but instead, I'm 6-7 pounds up from "normal" and I can't seem to make it budge. Usually one or the other works (eating well OR working out) to at least drop a few pounds. But now, it seems as though I've hit some sort of plateau and can't break it. I've been in the low 120s my whole life (aside from pg) and now I'm up toward 129/130. Even after I had Ellie, I got down to 118 with the X! UGGGGGHHHHHH!!!!
So, anyway, all that to say, I don't know what to do. I feel so extremely ashamed of myself that I can't muster up even the smallest amount of self discipline. It's always been an issue for me and I'm just tired of it.
Anyway...
Katie, I'm so sorry about the HFM disease thing. What a pain. I hope he's OK. My SIL has her son in daycare and she deals with similar issues. SO hard to have to take time off because someone else got your kid sick. I'm proud of you for doing PUB this morning though! Great job!
Kate, only 7 more pounds to go!!! That's awesome! You're doing great. I hope you're just having a wonderful time with Julia.
Robin, I'm sorry you're not feeling well. At least you can rest and eat some soup. In some ways, I can't wait until my girls are older and I can actually be "sick" and spend the day in bed! I hope you feel better soon.
Klaudia, I'm sorry about Milla! What a bummer. At least you vented your frustration by working out rather than eating!
Hi to Steph, Colleen, Nat, Emily, Anne!
Off to feed my kids (and myself) some breakfast. I'm hoping to have a relaxing day but will probably call and make a kids time appointment for around 9. I need to WORK OUT! BM2 premix #6.
Happy Hump Day!
angie