RB, that's me, definitely. It wasn't so bad before I got pregnant in 2006. But while I was pregnant, I was miserable. I had stomach/nausea issues the whole 9 months pretty much, and didn't sleep well, blah blah, and used food to make myself feel much better. We're talking whole boxes of brownies and such. And then I had a colicky baby who didn't sleep and food made it better with that, too. Some women handle that stuff ok I guess, but I didn't. Like I don't even want any more kids because the thought of all that just makes me depressed again.
Well now I've got an 18 month old and I'm back to normal, but those habits I developed are very hard to break. It's exactly as you said...1 brownie is too much, 10,000 is not enough. I should stop eating it all together, but the though of never enjoying that kind of stuff actually makes me anxious. Pretty bad, huh? Well, BFFM helps tremendously, and I keep telling myself that it really will be a struggle, every day, until maybe later when my habits are changed so much that it won't be. My Chalean Extreme motivational CD is great, too!
Here's my food for today:
M1: Egg/tomato/feta cz omelet
M2: Shredded wheat/1% milk/0.5 banana
M3: Chicken caesar salad w/croutons
M4: 1 cup 2% cottage cz, 1 cup Amy's organic black bean/veggie soup (did not like that - ew)
M5: 2 slices light WW bread, 1 tbs nat. PB, 1.5 tbs all-fruit jam
Extras: 2 tbs. creamer in my coffee, 1 10 calorie jello cup while i was fighting the sweets cravings
Calories/Fat%/Carb%/Protein%: 1564/30.7%/43.1%/26.4%
Not terrible, hopefully I won't eat anything else tonight!