BelovedHeather
Cathlete
My weight is holding steady this month, and that is a good thing. I would normally be disappointed to not have a loss, but I am thrilled this month. I shared last month that my doctor ordered 90 minutes of cardio 6 days a week. I added Cathe cardio premixes before my weight workouts. I started doing Cathe cardio almost every day plus my friend’s cardio boot camp class or the cardio machines at the club after work. My body did not like that game plan at all. Two weeks ago, I woke up with a sharp pain in the arch of my right foot. I changed shoes after every step combination and could barely walk by the end of my workout. Icing it helped. I bought new shoes. Gentle cardio was not allowing my foot to heal. I got discouraged because my body betrayed me when I was just trying to do follow my doctor’s orders, and my eating went straight to hell. Yes, I am an emotional eater. With a lot of encouragement from my wonderful online friends, I was able to pull myself up out of that ditch.
After 8 days of total rest, I am ready to start easing back into Cathe cardio again. Yes, I am having withdrawals! I had already prepared to come here and share that I gained another 10 pounds again this month and was right back to where I started on New Year’s Day. After not working out at all for 8 days and not working out hard for 2 weeks and eating junk for a week, I am thrilled with no gain this month. There are times to march forth in victory, and there are times to celebrate not losing any ground. This is the latter. Even though my food choices were not good at all, I kept my portions under control. I have historically always gained a chunk of weight during recovery weeks even when my eating was clean. I have always been afraid of what would happen if I had to take an extended break from intense exercise due to an injury. This experience set me free from that fear and encouraged me in a strange sort of way. For most of you, maintaining 220 pounds would not be good news. For me, it is a huge victory to fall off the wagon with my eating and get a grip on myself before I gained more weight. With the setback of an injury and the stumble with my eating, it would have been easy to write off this month as a lost cause and start over next month. The all-or-nothing girls who read this will totally understand!
I have not binged on food in almost 4 years, but I am still addicted to junk food. I can handle a planned treat on an otherwise nutrient-dense day, but I get in big trouble when I decide to eat whatever I want all day. The cravings are overwhelming when I do that, and I start sliding down a slippery slope. It is not just hard to get back on track. It is hell to get back on track.
I am basically getting my head out of the sand and admitting to myself that I am still addicted to food. No, I do not binge eat anymore. I just eat one donut instead of a dozen. But I still have a problem with junk food! Instead of resting on my blessed assurance and being satisfied with how far I have come, I want to step out in faith and walk in more and more freedom. Simply not binge eating is not good enough for me now. I will settle for nothing less than not mastered by food in any way, shape, or form. I do not think I will ever reach a magical place where I am not tempted by food. This is my thorn in the flesh. God’s grace is sufficient to overcome it. I believe it is possible to walk in victory consistently instead of riding this roller coaster. Weight loss is not my top priority right now. It is not my focus at all. I will likely record it on my Cathe calendar every month, but I am not sure if I will post the results. I will definitely update everyone on my journey every month.
By the way, I am so excited about Cathe’s new workouts and set. I love the tropical paradise! I need to go put all my stickers on my calendar for June. I recorded all my workouts in my journal but forgot to update my Cathe calendar. It looks naked!
I know what I need to do to walk in freedom. I had a great session with my counselor Thursday night, shared the game plan with her, and was delighted when she decided to join me! I will share more next month. Stay tuned for the next chapter!
GreenEyedLefty, are you still with me?
Blessings,
Heather B.
“So whether you eat or drink or whatever you do, do it all for the glory of God” (1 Corinthians 10:31 NIV).
After 8 days of total rest, I am ready to start easing back into Cathe cardio again. Yes, I am having withdrawals! I had already prepared to come here and share that I gained another 10 pounds again this month and was right back to where I started on New Year’s Day. After not working out at all for 8 days and not working out hard for 2 weeks and eating junk for a week, I am thrilled with no gain this month. There are times to march forth in victory, and there are times to celebrate not losing any ground. This is the latter. Even though my food choices were not good at all, I kept my portions under control. I have historically always gained a chunk of weight during recovery weeks even when my eating was clean. I have always been afraid of what would happen if I had to take an extended break from intense exercise due to an injury. This experience set me free from that fear and encouraged me in a strange sort of way. For most of you, maintaining 220 pounds would not be good news. For me, it is a huge victory to fall off the wagon with my eating and get a grip on myself before I gained more weight. With the setback of an injury and the stumble with my eating, it would have been easy to write off this month as a lost cause and start over next month. The all-or-nothing girls who read this will totally understand!
I have not binged on food in almost 4 years, but I am still addicted to junk food. I can handle a planned treat on an otherwise nutrient-dense day, but I get in big trouble when I decide to eat whatever I want all day. The cravings are overwhelming when I do that, and I start sliding down a slippery slope. It is not just hard to get back on track. It is hell to get back on track.
I am basically getting my head out of the sand and admitting to myself that I am still addicted to food. No, I do not binge eat anymore. I just eat one donut instead of a dozen. But I still have a problem with junk food! Instead of resting on my blessed assurance and being satisfied with how far I have come, I want to step out in faith and walk in more and more freedom. Simply not binge eating is not good enough for me now. I will settle for nothing less than not mastered by food in any way, shape, or form. I do not think I will ever reach a magical place where I am not tempted by food. This is my thorn in the flesh. God’s grace is sufficient to overcome it. I believe it is possible to walk in victory consistently instead of riding this roller coaster. Weight loss is not my top priority right now. It is not my focus at all. I will likely record it on my Cathe calendar every month, but I am not sure if I will post the results. I will definitely update everyone on my journey every month.
By the way, I am so excited about Cathe’s new workouts and set. I love the tropical paradise! I need to go put all my stickers on my calendar for June. I recorded all my workouts in my journal but forgot to update my Cathe calendar. It looks naked!
I know what I need to do to walk in freedom. I had a great session with my counselor Thursday night, shared the game plan with her, and was delighted when she decided to join me! I will share more next month. Stay tuned for the next chapter!
GreenEyedLefty, are you still with me?
Blessings,
Heather B.
“So whether you eat or drink or whatever you do, do it all for the glory of God” (1 Corinthians 10:31 NIV).
