Hi Jillybean - My mom suffered with bipolar disorder, and I know firsthand what a difficult disease it is to control. She had the kind w/psychotic episodes, which were a nightmare because she refused to voluntarily commit herself. Anyway, she went through HELL during the sixties, being subjected to shock treatments and all sorts of hellacious drugs. In the 70s, they got her on lithium, but it really didn't help much. It wasn't until she was in her 70s that they got her meds right. Thank God she had five decent years (she passed away in July 2001 at the age of 75)---it's too bad that I never knew the "real" person beneath that illness until she was elderly. That said, I'm glad that I did finally get to know her, even if it was for a too-short time. The good news is that they have made great advances in treating the disease, so people who suffer from it can live normal lives. I wanted to let you know that I think you're a brave person for being open about it, and I hope you are able to find the right combo of drugs to get it under control. Back when I was a kid and my mom was spinning from manic to depressed to psychotic, it was "shameful" to have family member with mental illness. I'm glad that society has become enlightened about these sorts of diseases. Keep your chin up, girl, and take good care of yourself. Suzanne