ashaw
Cathlete
In a few days, it'll be 3 months since I moved in with my mom and step-dad after a violent verbal altercation with my husband. And from what I understand, in 3 months there has been no change in him. Yes, he's seeing a counselor and reading books about marriage, but he is still not doing anything to seek gainful employment. And he's still living on borrowed money.
I wish I could say that things at my mom and step-dad's are going well. Its been difficult to say the least. About a month and a half after I got here, the a/c in my car went out. My mom and step-dad wanted to each help me get it fixed along with the extended warranty I have. My step-dad found a shop and they wanted $5,200 just to fix the a/c and I asked him if it would be OK if I got a estimate from a shop I'd been to before that has a location near the house. It turned out that I got everything important done to the car for just a little more than the other shop's quote solely for the a/c. I paid for the non-a/c stuff. Last Friday, my mom said she wanted to pay for my a/c repairs because Bill pays for everything for her and she has money that she doesn't use. We've had some issues about the temp in the house at bedtime. I can't help it if I get hot. Well, I was coming out of my room Tuesday morning and I hear my mom telling Bill "If I could take back the money I spent fixing her a/c I would do it, she acts like she rules this house" and a few other things I couldn't hear. I was crushed and couldn't believe she would talk about me like that behind my back. She does have memory problems and its like multiple personalities or something. I try to keep my room clean, I help out with chores when I can, I clean up after myself at dinner time, I'm very careful with Luca. I'm walking on eggshells again and my anxiety is running overtime. I had a talk with Bill and he said that she has said things about him and to him that would turn a person's stomach. Today at lunch all she did was complain about her salad because some of the spinach had stems. I heard her just awhile ago complaining to Bill that I control the a/c and I guess it was something about the pantry she was complaining about. Tuesday was probably the worst day of my life. I had a hair appointment and cried through my entire haircut. I even told Bill that if she says I did or said something hurtful to her to please come to me to get the facts straight because I would never do anything like that. Its hard because he's not really "on my side" or anything because his first loyalty is to her, he's not my biological father, nor did he raise me when I was growing up.
Almost every time she opens her mouth, its sarcasm coming out. She complains about her food, about the traffic, about the heat, about the crowds, one time at lunch, I tried to counter every sour comment of hers with something positive. And I've heard the way she talks to Bill a few times and he even told me that most anyone else would've left by now.
The other day she made some comment that "you've lived in so many nice houses, you've traveled the world, you drive a Lexus." I said nothing but wanted to say "yes but look at me now. I have nothing left".
Thank God I have my little workout area where I can start my day with some Pvolve. Right now, my mind, body and nerves are still taxed and Pvolve has been a godsend for me. I can get an intense workout but not feel worn out afterwards.
Now that I just got my car back, I'll be back on the job search. I was going to apply at the Wal-Mart where we shop because they had this huge now hiring sign but when I went to their job postings, they had one opening for a registered pharmacy tech.
About the only bright spot here is Luca. She can turn my mom's frown upside down.
I wanted to thank everyone for their support, this has been a heck of a ride.
I wish I could say that things at my mom and step-dad's are going well. Its been difficult to say the least. About a month and a half after I got here, the a/c in my car went out. My mom and step-dad wanted to each help me get it fixed along with the extended warranty I have. My step-dad found a shop and they wanted $5,200 just to fix the a/c and I asked him if it would be OK if I got a estimate from a shop I'd been to before that has a location near the house. It turned out that I got everything important done to the car for just a little more than the other shop's quote solely for the a/c. I paid for the non-a/c stuff. Last Friday, my mom said she wanted to pay for my a/c repairs because Bill pays for everything for her and she has money that she doesn't use. We've had some issues about the temp in the house at bedtime. I can't help it if I get hot. Well, I was coming out of my room Tuesday morning and I hear my mom telling Bill "If I could take back the money I spent fixing her a/c I would do it, she acts like she rules this house" and a few other things I couldn't hear. I was crushed and couldn't believe she would talk about me like that behind my back. She does have memory problems and its like multiple personalities or something. I try to keep my room clean, I help out with chores when I can, I clean up after myself at dinner time, I'm very careful with Luca. I'm walking on eggshells again and my anxiety is running overtime. I had a talk with Bill and he said that she has said things about him and to him that would turn a person's stomach. Today at lunch all she did was complain about her salad because some of the spinach had stems. I heard her just awhile ago complaining to Bill that I control the a/c and I guess it was something about the pantry she was complaining about. Tuesday was probably the worst day of my life. I had a hair appointment and cried through my entire haircut. I even told Bill that if she says I did or said something hurtful to her to please come to me to get the facts straight because I would never do anything like that. Its hard because he's not really "on my side" or anything because his first loyalty is to her, he's not my biological father, nor did he raise me when I was growing up.
Almost every time she opens her mouth, its sarcasm coming out. She complains about her food, about the traffic, about the heat, about the crowds, one time at lunch, I tried to counter every sour comment of hers with something positive. And I've heard the way she talks to Bill a few times and he even told me that most anyone else would've left by now.
The other day she made some comment that "you've lived in so many nice houses, you've traveled the world, you drive a Lexus." I said nothing but wanted to say "yes but look at me now. I have nothing left".
Thank God I have my little workout area where I can start my day with some Pvolve. Right now, my mind, body and nerves are still taxed and Pvolve has been a godsend for me. I can get an intense workout but not feel worn out afterwards.
Now that I just got my car back, I'll be back on the job search. I was going to apply at the Wal-Mart where we shop because they had this huge now hiring sign but when I went to their job postings, they had one opening for a registered pharmacy tech.
About the only bright spot here is Luca. She can turn my mom's frown upside down.
I wanted to thank everyone for their support, this has been a heck of a ride.
