Hi, everyone,
Thank you all so much for disclosing such personal, delicate stories with everyone here ~ we've all had our bouts with one thing or another.
I've suffered two major depressive episodes - one was my senior year in college and the other was just about a year ago (I was 25). Both times, the symptoms came acutely and very suddenly, with virtually no warning. I lost about 10 pounds in one week, didn't sleep past 4am, had incessant heart palpitations, was overanalyzing EVERYTHING and obsessing (I have also suffered from a form of the Pure Obsessive Disorder), crying at the drop of a hat, etc. I really thought life was completely devoid of meaning.
Each time, I was prescribed Zoloft and each time, it took about 3 weeks (no more than that) to kick in. I literally awoke one morning feeling like I wanted to get out of bed and face the world. The aliveness was almost unbelievable... If anyone has read "Prozac Nation", it depicts depression so accurately it's scary. I highly recommend that book.
During my last episode, I was also extremely anxious. I couldn't get my heart to settle down no matter what I did, so my doctor prescribed Xanax, which helped in about 24 hours. That was a relief.
As for side effects of Zoloft, the only thing I remember is nausea in the very beginning and I'm often battling fatigue throughout the day and night (aren't we all, though?). It sure beats what I was experiencing before I took it, though.
I also went to different therapists each time... They helped a lot, but only after the meds kicked in and I was able to see life as something worth living and experiencing. I had to get back to that functioning level before I could tackle other demons.
I'm a strong proponent of medication when you are so low you think there is absolutely no hope. If the right ones are prescribed, meds can return a person back to a place that feels much closer to normal.
I'm now almost 27, pursuing my Master's in Counseling Psychology (I want to work with eating disorder sufferers) and working part-time at a law firm. I have an incredible family, an awesome boyfriend, a great apartment, and everything seems to be falling into place. One day at a time...
Take care, everyone,
Amy S.