HI Everyone,
I have been struggling with the "motivation" think now for a few monthes and it is driving me insane! I don't want to turn this into another diet thread and I don't want to make it sound like I want a quick fix either.But yet it as a little bit of my diet involved.
I use to love working out.I worked hard to.I would work for atleast 2 hours a day, either in the morning or night, and I wouldn't let myself rest until I had worked out.And then there were other days when I would break my workout up into 2 seperate workouts.Working out in the evening was NEVER a problem for me.When I felt like my dinner was settled and I had my little girl put to bed, I would start in on my workout.
But in the last year,I have let myself slip.The motivation isn't there.The drive to keep my tummy pooch at bay isn't there,my craving for movement isn't there.Even after a workout,a day at work and just general things, I would keep myself busy at night by doing laundry,cleaning the cupboards,going for a walk or just doing house
chores.I look at my friends and I see their motivation to stay slim and active,they have so much drive and desire.And I want what any other person wants as well, but I just don't have it in me to work hard and be dertermined anymore.I can't get focused!
I can't tell you how many sweets I eat in the run of a day.If I don't do my workout in the morning then it doesn't get done.Not only do I not workout, but I also don't put the laundry away,I will leave it for the next day.I fear that I may be turning into a couch potatoe.
And then again,maybe I am being to hard on myself.A day for me may mean getting up at 5, working two jobs,running 14kms and doing the normal things(cooking,tiding and homework).But yet there are times when I feel like I have gained 20 lbs,I feel like I am "overflowing" out of my clothes and everything is just getting to tight.
Ive read numerous books on diet and exercise but why can't I lose weight the way I lost it before.Probably b/c I was determined before.I just ate healthy,treated myself every once in a while and worked out regularly.
I don't want to get any bigger.I would love to create a nice rotation to keep boredom aside and to help drop those unwanted pounds.I am also not a scale freake but I can see it when I look in the mirror.I always feel bloated.I am just so confused with what to do.Prehaps I read to much.
Does anyone have any insight on this? Anyone been in this situation?
I don't think that I have a good relationship with food.I am a picker.Im not a overeater.
It seems like I have my drive gone.I know that I am healthy and that I am in alot better shape then most people around me,but when people look at me, I want them to think,"yeah,she looks like she runs everyday".Instead,I think they are saying,"oh,doesn't look like she exercises"
I have just had enough.I think I have let it go on to long.I just pulled on my workout clothes,went to workout, but nothing was interesting me.I didn't want to run,I didn't want to do step,or kickboxing.Instead I will go sit on the couch and pace back and forth to the kitchen and sneak peices of food.That when I figured I would post here.
Everyone here seems to have such good info.I don't know if I should count calories and then again, how many do I actually need?
I didn't mean to make this so long, but what I have been feeling inside as finally started to come out!Atleast I haven't started pulling my hair out.
If nothing else....thanks for listening to me vent!
I have been struggling with the "motivation" think now for a few monthes and it is driving me insane! I don't want to turn this into another diet thread and I don't want to make it sound like I want a quick fix either.But yet it as a little bit of my diet involved.
I use to love working out.I worked hard to.I would work for atleast 2 hours a day, either in the morning or night, and I wouldn't let myself rest until I had worked out.And then there were other days when I would break my workout up into 2 seperate workouts.Working out in the evening was NEVER a problem for me.When I felt like my dinner was settled and I had my little girl put to bed, I would start in on my workout.
But in the last year,I have let myself slip.The motivation isn't there.The drive to keep my tummy pooch at bay isn't there,my craving for movement isn't there.Even after a workout,a day at work and just general things, I would keep myself busy at night by doing laundry,cleaning the cupboards,going for a walk or just doing house
chores.I look at my friends and I see their motivation to stay slim and active,they have so much drive and desire.And I want what any other person wants as well, but I just don't have it in me to work hard and be dertermined anymore.I can't get focused!
I can't tell you how many sweets I eat in the run of a day.If I don't do my workout in the morning then it doesn't get done.Not only do I not workout, but I also don't put the laundry away,I will leave it for the next day.I fear that I may be turning into a couch potatoe.
And then again,maybe I am being to hard on myself.A day for me may mean getting up at 5, working two jobs,running 14kms and doing the normal things(cooking,tiding and homework).But yet there are times when I feel like I have gained 20 lbs,I feel like I am "overflowing" out of my clothes and everything is just getting to tight.
Ive read numerous books on diet and exercise but why can't I lose weight the way I lost it before.Probably b/c I was determined before.I just ate healthy,treated myself every once in a while and worked out regularly.
I don't want to get any bigger.I would love to create a nice rotation to keep boredom aside and to help drop those unwanted pounds.I am also not a scale freake but I can see it when I look in the mirror.I always feel bloated.I am just so confused with what to do.Prehaps I read to much.
Does anyone have any insight on this? Anyone been in this situation?
I don't think that I have a good relationship with food.I am a picker.Im not a overeater.
It seems like I have my drive gone.I know that I am healthy and that I am in alot better shape then most people around me,but when people look at me, I want them to think,"yeah,she looks like she runs everyday".Instead,I think they are saying,"oh,doesn't look like she exercises"
I have just had enough.I think I have let it go on to long.I just pulled on my workout clothes,went to workout, but nothing was interesting me.I didn't want to run,I didn't want to do step,or kickboxing.Instead I will go sit on the couch and pace back and forth to the kitchen and sneak peices of food.That when I figured I would post here.
Everyone here seems to have such good info.I don't know if I should count calories and then again, how many do I actually need?
I didn't mean to make this so long, but what I have been feeling inside as finally started to come out!Atleast I haven't started pulling my hair out.
If nothing else....thanks for listening to me vent!