Hi everyone
I've been really bad at checking in lately, havent i? And i really have no excuse!
I am doing fine, just enjoying time with my DH since he is off this weekend
We dont see much of each other.
I havent had a good week - i checked my bank account two days ago and its ALOT lower than i had ever thought. its the lowest i've ever seen it and it scared me. i can not even buy groceries with what is in there. i'm wondering where it went?? I dont even buy things. I just pay the usual bills
So i've been kind of down in the dumps, and worried and wdnering how i'm supposed to support this baby of ours. I was thinking of working two jobs. It just doesnt seem fair - 5 months preggers witha full time job, then trying to figure out how and when to work a second. I've never had this experience before. I've alwas managed to just get by but now i'm worried. My DH tells me I need to have faith, that I need to trust in the Lord that all of our needs will be met. Sometimes its hard becuase I worry about where money will come from to pay the next bill. What really kills me is the $800 HOA fee we owe here every three months at once. its a HUGE chunk of money and its really killing the finances
Sorry to vent...i've never felt this desperate and helpless before. Its not like i sit on my butt and dont work...
So..i've been kind of depressed the past couple of days and a little worried.
Working out felt good the past two days, good and FREE stress relief. Let's see yesterday i did Kelly Coffey Meyer Ready Step Go (45 min of step) and the ORIGINAL Buns of Steel - i got some good laughs off that one, it is sooooo dated. But whew do your glutes burn!
Today I did Sharon Money Twombleys Ahtletic Step Jam which is over 70 mins of straight steppin. It wore me out.
I'm still doing abs - i'll be 21 weeks. Is that bad? I've heard abs is a no no ut i feel fine when i do them. Of course i dont want to endanger my little bean..
Oh, i *think* i felt the baby move a few moments ago. It felt like a gas bubble but its in my lower stomach area so i'm not sure if its gas or baby. My husband felt it too. While we were watching Juno of all movies lol!
Tomorrow is Sunday already - we will go to church, then my DH has to help my dad move AGAIN into another place. This market has really dealt us all a crap hand. So while he is gone i will probably do cardio and a weight workout. I bought eggplant parm ingredients for dinner since it doesnt require much and i couldnt really afford too much food.
I did briefly read the past couple of days of the checkins
Autumn, i'm really sorry to hear about your loss. You will be in my prayers and I hope that you will be ok. Take care of yourself during this difficult time.
Sorry I dont have personals lately - i'm so far behind, i need to pick up one day and get back to it.
Oh, and Wed-Sun you wont hear from me. I dont have internet where i'll be going - at my moms in CT for my shower. Yay, i'm excited. I'm even brining my little dog with me. I booked before i looked at my checking account
dont ask me how i'm going to pay for that :'(
Sorry for whining about things, i think i just needed to vent, cuz i'm kinda scared about my situation. And i know you guys always listen.
I hope you are all having a great weekend!