oh...I can't believe I've let myself go so bad

[winter2b]

I was just doing supersets...as I was doing the bicycle crunches, I looked down and I actually looked pregnant?!!! Ive never even had a baby!!! How on earth did I let myself go so bad... This is just a testament that I can't let myself stop working out now...and I need to follow my eating plan. Oh man...I can't believe I let myself go so bad...

Time to get on the elliptical now...lots of work to do. Hopefully someday I can look at mybelly during crunches without wondering how I got to my 9th month without realizing it!

Sorry...I just needed to vent cause I feel like crying!!!

 

[Pedmom]

AMY-this is motivation! It's good that you have some although I know it's not a good kind of motivation. But I know you've been struggling with your eating, so every time you want to overeat or eat something you really don't think you should, just remember THIS feeling RIGHT NOW. ((hugs))

I'm gonna email you now!
jill

 

[merrybaker]

Awww Amy dont be so hard on yourself . And keep coming here !! It will happen for you just takes time . I can so relate . Good job on your workout too .

 

[Kit_]

Amy, use this to help yourself don't use it to tell yourself you've been bad, or your eating habits/workout habits suck. Everytime you want to miss a workout or eat something you shouldn't just look down, and see if you still one it.

Kit

 

[toastythemosty]

Just keep going with your workouts and don't ever stop. Get yourself into a habit. Motivation will take over soon when you start seeing yourself changing for the better thru healthy eating and hard workouts. Decide right now what you want for yourself and don't look back. You are going to fight for what you want and not quit, right? Like Cathe says, "yes, is the only answer". I think she said that when I was doing Boot Camp today...twice! Try doing that one 2x's and you are sure to lose some weight!

Charlotte~~

 

[robin4health]

It is ok Amy. Set small goals for yourself, that will help the whole 'self sabotage' thing. You can do it....we all believe in you!!! Set small mile stones for yourself and when you achieve them....be proud! Every step is one step closer to your goal!

 

[kathryn]

I feel your pain!
Several years ago, I decided to put a mirror in my workout area (mostly to check form on my weight moves), and I was appalled at the way my legs looked: I hadn't been working out regularly (it was after a semester sabbatical, and even though I had intended to be regular in my workouts at the time, I ended up reading most of the day, and feeling "too tired" to workout after that, so skipped more workouts than I did).

It was so tempting to get rid of that mirror! But I took it as a challenge. I'd keep that (@&$ mirror there, and wear shorts when I worked out, and keep looking. It was tough, but it motivated me to get back into regular workouts. And suddenly, one day it seemed, I looked in that mirror, and said "hey, those legs look pretty good!" And they've been gradually getting better ever since.

Just hang in there. Sometimes, it's those low points that motivate us to really get better (kind of like when drug addicts have a crisis point that forces them to finally kick the habit: and in a way, letting ourselves get out of shape/health is almost as potentially self-destructive as drug addiction is).

It can only get better from here! Just stay in it for the long run, and keep consistant with your exercise and good eating, and don't expect results too quickly (as that can be frustrating). Just kind of keep that motivation in the back of your mind without obsessing over it. Someday, you'll look down, and wonder where that roll of fat went!