squirrelly
Cathlete
Hi Robin! Don't worry about it! 
Leanne--Holy moly, woman! Are you OK? The perks of living in CA, eh? Take care!
Leanne--Holy moly, woman! Are you OK? The perks of living in CA, eh? Take care!
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lainiefig
Cathlete
OK, Melty Maidens. I have arrived. You can all breathe a sigh of relief in the delight of my presence. Or not. Whatever.
As you can tell, I am in rare form today. Did my errands (just stuff I could do walking around the village) and did 4DS HIS (LOVE IT) and did laundry and opened a big box of gifts for Ewan from my in-laws. I also did really important stuff like setting Led Zeppelin’s “Kashmir” as my ring tone on the new phone.
I gained 3 lbs this week. 3 lbs! WTH!?!? Yeah, I suck. I’m going to be at my fattest non-pregnant weight for the RT. So despicable. And this may sound silly, but I’m afraid people who read my blog (there are random people out there who do) and who will attend the RT will wonder what right I have to be writing a fitness blog. I mean, I don’t generally claim to actually be fit, just to enjoy working on it, but I still think some people will go, “That’s the Fitness Fig!? What a fat beast!” Is that silly? At least you Melty August RTers will be prepared now.
Deb, nope, no shopping today. My errands were post office and library kind of stuff. I did do some shopping last night, though…on Kohls and Nike.com. More stuff for the RT so I hope it arrives in time!
Shelley, ***sigh*** wish I could gtg with you guys, too.
Peggie, I’m trying not to think about a sale on AOS Newport. Must resist. Must resist.
Robin, it was nice to know this morning that you were planning the same workout as I was, though I was still only on 4” and not matching Cathe in weights (but close on the back stuff, at least). My weekend was pretty great, except for the times I had to sit around with Ewan while Brian and Isaac hiked higher or went canoeing—Ewan just couldn’t do as much so I had to entertain him.
Shannon, glad things are “interesting” and busy. Hope today is going well.
Leanne, yowza, an earthquake? Feeling steadier now? I’ve only been in one (a little 4.0 in Missouri) and it was shocking enough. I can’t imagine how scary they are out there in Cali.
Allison, ((((HUGS)))) chica. I’m sorry you feel so puny and down in the dumps!
Tneah, ugh, that is disheartening news about the new exercise recommendations. That sucks for those of us fatties who already feel like we’re working so hard to lose weight. I do about an hour of exercise 4-6 days a week (I’m rather inconsistent) so that is probably part of my problem (though mainly I have food issues). I hope you got the guest out of your gym!
Kath, hello & welcome!
Kara, when do your kids start back to school? Mine don’t go back until after Labor Day here.
As you can tell, I am in rare form today. Did my errands (just stuff I could do walking around the village) and did 4DS HIS (LOVE IT) and did laundry and opened a big box of gifts for Ewan from my in-laws. I also did really important stuff like setting Led Zeppelin’s “Kashmir” as my ring tone on the new phone.
I gained 3 lbs this week. 3 lbs! WTH!?!? Yeah, I suck. I’m going to be at my fattest non-pregnant weight for the RT. So despicable.
And this may sound silly, but I’m afraid people who read my blog (there are random people out there who do) and who will attend the RT will wonder what right I have to be writing a fitness blog. I mean, I don’t generally claim to actually be fit, just to enjoy working on it, but I still think some people will go, “That’s the Fitness Fig!? What a fat beast!” Is that silly? At least you Melty August RTers will be prepared now. Deb, nope, no shopping today. My errands were post office and library kind of stuff. I did do some shopping last night, though…on Kohls and Nike.com. More stuff for the RT so I hope it arrives in time!
Shelley, ***sigh*** wish I could gtg with you guys, too.
Peggie, I’m trying not to think about a sale on AOS Newport. Must resist. Must resist.
Robin, it was nice to know this morning that you were planning the same workout as I was, though I was still only on 4” and not matching Cathe in weights (but close on the back stuff, at least). My weekend was pretty great, except for the times I had to sit around with Ewan while Brian and Isaac hiked higher or went canoeing—Ewan just couldn’t do as much so I had to entertain him.
Shannon, glad things are “interesting” and busy. Hope today is going well.
Leanne, yowza, an earthquake? Feeling steadier now? I’ve only been in one (a little 4.0 in Missouri) and it was shocking enough. I can’t imagine how scary they are out there in Cali.
Allison, ((((HUGS)))) chica. I’m sorry you feel so puny and down in the dumps!
Tneah, ugh, that is disheartening news about the new exercise recommendations. That sucks for those of us fatties who already feel like we’re working so hard to lose weight. I do about an hour of exercise 4-6 days a week (I’m rather inconsistent) so that is probably part of my problem (though mainly I have food issues). I hope you got the guest out of your gym!
Kath, hello & welcome!
Kara, when do your kids start back to school? Mine don’t go back until after Labor Day here.
squirrelly
Cathlete
Well, we made it back alive! Wahoo! Colin did really well, but man was it ever disconcerting having him in control! How have parents done this all these years? This is far worse than potty training! He had great fun though (surprise, surprise).
I have to get Emma ready for piano and do some cleaning before DH walks in and wonders WTH I was up to all day!
I just saw your post Lainie and am going to act as a stand-in for Tneah by telling you to not be so hard on yourself. You are beautiful! Fitness is a journey and by struggling with weight you have far more to offer than someone who is *naturally* stick-thin (not that anyone would want that). I have read your blog and it is incredibly valuable! You are very talented! Oh, and the kids go back August 11th. They have been out since the 3rd week in May.
I am so sorry to not have time to *talk* to everyone. I will try to be back later. I need to start cracking the whip around here (get your minds out of the gutter...remember DH isn't home YET)!
I have to get Emma ready for piano and do some cleaning before DH walks in and wonders WTH I was up to all day!
I just saw your post Lainie and am going to act as a stand-in for Tneah by telling you to not be so hard on yourself. You are beautiful! Fitness is a journey and by struggling with weight you have far more to offer than someone who is *naturally* stick-thin (not that anyone would want that). I have read your blog and it is incredibly valuable! You are very talented! Oh, and the kids go back August 11th. They have been out since the 3rd week in May.
I am so sorry to not have time to *talk* to everyone. I will try to be back later. I need to start cracking the whip around here (get your minds out of the gutter...remember DH isn't home YET)!
Tiffany(tneah)
Cathlete
Leanne! Holy cow! I was watching the news and commented to DH about you in Carlsbad...is everything okay chica? It appears as if no one was harmed thank god! They also said Las Vegas felt it, but I didn't feel a thing. Sending worried vibes your way!
Lainie bug, for heaven's sake woman! I ditto everything that Kara just said! Plus, I just saw a pic of you and you are stunning, funny, and look damn good in a halter top lady, so stop with all that talk. Did you happen to notice all the gals at the RT came in all shapes and sizes and no one cared? They were all there to have fun and be together, so phooey on a few pounds! Thats what I say! ((hugs))
Kara, yeah for Colin! Where is DH?? Did I miss that post? Mine goes to SLC tomorrow for a day...would be nice to have some alone time, but alas, our houseguest will be here...darn it. I think I need to move to like the North Pole for some much needed alone time, well I guess even the North Pole wouldn't work, you know, Santa Claus and all.
Allison, what is happening with that tummy? Mine sorta felt queasy today for some reason, probably sympathy pains for you and Shelley. ((hugs and kisses)) chica...BTW? Your abs are smokin' hot girl, you and Tracey looked so cute in your leopard workout pants!
Robin, wise woman skipping the pie before beach time. I am really saddened to hear about your co-worker.
I am super tired today, for no reason really, other than its a low energy day for me I suppose, we all have those draggy days right? Georgie is back with a "summer cut" looks so adorable, they just cut his coat a few inches shorter than usual but it helps control the slobber for sure.
I need a nap...Zzzzzzzz.....I did that weird workout this morning from the Terminator DVD called "Imax Extreme". Its over an hour of Imax2 plus the cardio from Cardio and Weights with a few weight exercises tossed in. It was long....again, Zzzz.......
Lainie bug, for heaven's sake woman! I ditto everything that Kara just said! Plus, I just saw a pic of you and you are stunning, funny, and look damn good in a halter top lady, so stop with all that talk. Did you happen to notice all the gals at the RT came in all shapes and sizes and no one cared? They were all there to have fun and be together, so phooey on a few pounds! Thats what I say! ((hugs))
Kara, yeah for Colin! Where is DH?? Did I miss that post? Mine goes to SLC tomorrow for a day...would be nice to have some alone time, but alas, our houseguest will be here...darn it. I think I need to move to like the North Pole for some much needed alone time, well I guess even the North Pole wouldn't work, you know, Santa Claus and all.
Allison, what is happening with that tummy? Mine sorta felt queasy today for some reason, probably sympathy pains for you and Shelley. ((hugs and kisses)) chica...BTW? Your abs are smokin' hot girl, you and Tracey looked so cute in your leopard workout pants!
Robin, wise woman skipping the pie before beach time. I am really saddened to hear about your co-worker.
I am super tired today, for no reason really, other than its a low energy day for me I suppose, we all have those draggy days right? Georgie is back with a "summer cut" looks so adorable, they just cut his coat a few inches shorter than usual but it helps control the slobber for sure.
I need a nap...Zzzzzzzz.....I did that weird workout this morning from the Terminator DVD called "Imax Extreme". Its over an hour of Imax2 plus the cardio from Cardio and Weights with a few weight exercises tossed in. It was long....again, Zzzz.......
LeanneM
Cathlete
Hey, ladies!
Oh, the earthquake was a small one, so it wasn't too bad. I haven't felt one in a few years, actually. It's funny b/c when we lived in Indiana, everyone said that we'd have to be nuts to live in CA with all the earthquakes -- when the tornado watches there scared the pants off of me! The one time we had to hide in our bathtub when a tornado passed right next to our town was esp. scary!
So I'm upset b/c I just finished up the bracelet I've been working on for Cathe -- and it's not staying closed! I based it on a bracelet I made last year, but I had to order the beads on-line, and they weren't quite the same size, so the loop enclosure isn't staying tight. UGH! At least I found out now, I guess. I think I can add a magnetic closure to it, but it'll look ugly.
I think I did a silly thing. I had a hair appointment scheduled for this Thursday, but canceled it a few hours ago b/c I want my hair to get a little longer. The thing is, though, that I really need a haircut. I'm going to look like a mangy mutt at the RT. Sigh.
Lainie -- I posted on the RT thread, but I'll join Kara in letting you know that you are fit and healthy and GORGEOUS!! Don't sweat the weight gain; you'll get it back under control soon! Remember, too, how you and I met last year -- talking about looking fit? You ARE fit and healthy and very knowledgeable about both health and fitness, and your blog is wonderful! That weight gain could also be from eating out more over the weekend, and it'll soon be back off. What did you order from Kohl's and Nike? I think Mike is glad that the RT will be here soon so I'll stop spending money on things I "need" for it!
Kara -- Whew! Glad you made it through a day of both school orientation AND driving lessons! Did you bring some vino with you?! Now DH really might like it if you crack the whip when he gets home . . . .
Tneah -- I'm back to say "hey" since we were posting at the same time! Glad that Georgie's new 'do is so smashing on him! Can I join you at the North Pole?? I bet they have lots and lots of ice cream up there! Oh, your workout today sounds like a killer one!! I don't have the Terminator DVD, but it looks interesting! Maybe get to bed early tonight, chica, so you can get caught up on your rest!
Where are Kristi and Breck Girl today?
So RT ladies, does everyone pitch in for gifts for the coordinators and Cathe? It seems like I remember seeing photos of that from last year, but wasn't sure . . . .
Oh, the earthquake was a small one, so it wasn't too bad. I haven't felt one in a few years, actually. It's funny b/c when we lived in Indiana, everyone said that we'd have to be nuts to live in CA with all the earthquakes -- when the tornado watches there scared the pants off of me! The one time we had to hide in our bathtub when a tornado passed right next to our town was esp. scary!
So I'm upset b/c I just finished up the bracelet I've been working on for Cathe -- and it's not staying closed! I based it on a bracelet I made last year, but I had to order the beads on-line, and they weren't quite the same size, so the loop enclosure isn't staying tight. UGH! At least I found out now, I guess. I think I can add a magnetic closure to it, but it'll look ugly.
I think I did a silly thing. I had a hair appointment scheduled for this Thursday, but canceled it a few hours ago b/c I want my hair to get a little longer. The thing is, though, that I really need a haircut. I'm going to look like a mangy mutt at the RT. Sigh.
Lainie -- I posted on the RT thread, but I'll join Kara in letting you know that you are fit and healthy and GORGEOUS!! Don't sweat the weight gain; you'll get it back under control soon! Remember, too, how you and I met last year -- talking about looking fit? You ARE fit and healthy and very knowledgeable about both health and fitness, and your blog is wonderful! That weight gain could also be from eating out more over the weekend, and it'll soon be back off. What did you order from Kohl's and Nike? I think Mike is glad that the RT will be here soon so I'll stop spending money on things I "need" for it!
Kara -- Whew! Glad you made it through a day of both school orientation AND driving lessons! Did you bring some vino with you?! Now DH really might like it if you crack the whip when he gets home . . . .
Tneah -- I'm back to say "hey" since we were posting at the same time! Glad that Georgie's new 'do is so smashing on him! Can I join you at the North Pole?? I bet they have lots and lots of ice cream up there! Oh, your workout today sounds like a killer one!! I don't have the Terminator DVD, but it looks interesting! Maybe get to bed early tonight, chica, so you can get caught up on your rest!
Where are Kristi and Breck Girl today?
So RT ladies, does everyone pitch in for gifts for the coordinators and Cathe? It seems like I remember seeing photos of that from last year, but wasn't sure . . . .
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squirrelly
Cathlete
Back!
Tneah--DH just isn't home from work yet. He hardly ever has to travel for it. Sorry you and DH don't get enough alone time! That freakin' Santa Claus can ruin the best laid plans! Oh, and you were wonderful to befriend your housekeepers. It was awful for them to abuse your sweet generosity!
Leanne--I managed to pick up a couple of things for the RT, but still am not sure about any of it! Ugh! Sorry about the bracelet. Would the magnetic closure really look that bad? I am sure Cathe would love it! You are very talented. Again, I want to tell you how wonderful your haircut is, really! I bet it even looks cute after a workout! You should see mine!
Robin--I meant to tell you how sorry I am about your coworker. I hope she will recover quickly. Good job on the melting too!
Allison--((((HUGS))))) I hope you feel better soon! I loved the leopard pants too!
Breckie--Where are you????
Must clean bathrooms now!
Tneah--DH just isn't home from work yet. He hardly ever has to travel for it. Sorry you and DH don't get enough alone time! That freakin' Santa Claus can ruin the best laid plans! Oh, and you were wonderful to befriend your housekeepers. It was awful for them to abuse your sweet generosity!
Leanne--I managed to pick up a couple of things for the RT, but still am not sure about any of it! Ugh! Sorry about the bracelet. Would the magnetic closure really look that bad? I am sure Cathe would love it! You are very talented. Again, I want to tell you how wonderful your haircut is, really! I bet it even looks cute after a workout! You should see mine!
Robin--I meant to tell you how sorry I am about your coworker. I hope she will recover quickly. Good job on the melting too!
Allison--((((HUGS))))) I hope you feel better soon! I loved the leopard pants too!
Breckie--Where are you????
Must clean bathrooms now!
squirrelly
Cathlete
Shannon--I am so glad you were able to talk things over with the coworker. I hope the hate is gone for good!
Shelley--((((HUGS)))) I am so sorry for everything you are going through. Hang in there, girlfriend.
Shelley--((((HUGS)))) I am so sorry for everything you are going through. Hang in there, girlfriend.
Tiffany(tneah)
Cathlete
Leanne, thank goodness everything is okay! I have never been in an earthquake, but lived in Oklahoma for awhile and battled tornado's which as you know, very scary! Can you call your girl back about your hair,do you need just a little trim? Is there someone else in the salon that could fit you in last minute? I loved your hair, so cute. It looks like that model, her name starts with an "A" and she is platinum blond, oh and Rhianna the singer sorta has your look too, I think its darling, and you hardly look like a "shaggy mutt:...I laughed out loud when I read that, it sounded so funny! and its so not true. I agree with Kara, I am sure the bracelet is beautiful! And who cares about the clasp? Cathe will love it and be so touched you made it for her, you are so sweet!
Ah, lazy me today. I am watching foodnetwork, plotting my next big foray into the kitchen.... I avoid the Vegas kitchen like the plague with these black marble floors...but the boat? Nice big kitchen with light wood easy to clean floors! I can start cooking and baking again...think I will go to bed early tonight, just not feeling the energy love today.
and its so not true. I agree with Kara, I am sure the bracelet is beautiful! And who cares about the clasp? Cathe will love it and be so touched you made it for her, you are so sweet!Ah, lazy me today. I am watching foodnetwork, plotting my next big foray into the kitchen....
I avoid the Vegas kitchen like the plague with these black marble floors...but the boat? Nice big kitchen with light wood easy to clean floors! I can start cooking and baking again...think I will go to bed early tonight, just not feeling the energy love today.
PinkMom
Cathlete
Hi, girls!
I'm sorry I haven't been around -- just trying to get caught up on lots of household stuff. I had to take DD to the dentist today then run lots of errands. I still haven't read the days' posts that I missed, but I didn't want to continue to be AWOL from you awesome chicas!
I took a rest day today b/c I realized yesterday while doing LIS/Total Body Sculpting as sort of a preview before I try it with my girls that I was really tired and sore. Plus, I did something to my wrist in all the manhandling of my bag in and out of the overhead bin. Tomorrow I think I'm going to try something from The Terminator -- I bought it on RT.
Robin -- I cannot believe your quote! ROTFLMAO!!!!!! I'm still going to email you all the RT dets. when I can find a spare minute. I'm sorry I haven't done it yet, but I have been "thinking" you an email since yesterday.
Leanne -- at our RT everyone gave $4 for gifts for Cathe and the coords. I am sure that DH is glad the expense for RT has come to an end. I'm glad the earthquake wasn't a big deal!
Tneah -- sorry about the annoying houseguest. I know I need to go back and catch up on all your news -- new boat, housekeeper issues??? I'll do that soon so I don't feel so out of the loop.
Kara -- ugh -- our kids behind the wheel! I'll be there with you in a couple of weeks!!! yikes! how's the house?
Lainie -- please don't fret about your weight at RT. You are fit, strong, smart, beautiful, kind, giving -- you are awesome! We ARE NOT defined by some stupid number! (I'm preaching to myself, too, b/c I'm up a couple of pounds, too.)
Allie -- I'm so sorry you are under the weather -- that sucks!
Shelley -- I'm sorry about your stomach! I wish I could come meet up with you and Robin and Deb!
Hi, Shannon, Deb, BG, & Peggie! If I missed anyone, I'm sorry! I'll try to get some pics on my Picturetrail soon!
Hugs to you all!
I'm sorry I haven't been around -- just trying to get caught up on lots of household stuff. I had to take DD to the dentist today then run lots of errands. I still haven't read the days' posts that I missed, but I didn't want to continue to be AWOL from you awesome chicas!
I took a rest day today b/c I realized yesterday while doing LIS/Total Body Sculpting as sort of a preview before I try it with my girls that I was really tired and sore. Plus, I did something to my wrist in all the manhandling of my bag in and out of the overhead bin. Tomorrow I think I'm going to try something from The Terminator -- I bought it on RT.
Robin -- I cannot believe your quote! ROTFLMAO!!!!!! I'm still going to email you all the RT dets. when I can find a spare minute. I'm sorry I haven't done it yet, but I have been "thinking" you an email since yesterday.
Leanne -- at our RT everyone gave $4 for gifts for Cathe and the coords. I am sure that DH is glad the expense for RT has come to an end.
I'm glad the earthquake wasn't a big deal! Tneah -- sorry about the annoying houseguest. I know I need to go back and catch up on all your news -- new boat, housekeeper issues??? I'll do that soon so I don't feel so out of the loop.
Kara -- ugh -- our kids behind the wheel! I'll be there with you in a couple of weeks!!! yikes! how's the house?
Lainie -- please don't fret about your weight at RT. You are fit, strong, smart, beautiful, kind, giving -- you are awesome! We ARE NOT defined by some stupid number! (I'm preaching to myself, too, b/c I'm up a couple of pounds, too.)
Allie -- I'm so sorry you are under the weather -- that sucks!
Shelley -- I'm sorry about your stomach! I wish I could come meet up with you and Robin and Deb!
Hi, Shannon, Deb, BG, & Peggie! If I missed anyone, I'm sorry! I'll try to get some pics on my Picturetrail soon!
Hugs to you all!
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plarsen
Cathlete
Hello kittens -
Leanne - Holy Crap. Bet that was a little scary. Glad everything is okay. I ordered some of that oatmeal. It sounds yummy.
Tneah - Sorry about the house guest being in your gym. At least he is nice though, huh.
Lainie - you look so pretty. Quit being down on yourself.
I am going to do a CC because I did not do enough this morning. I was so tired with Tayler coughing half the night. She seemed a lot better when I picked her up from the Y after work though, so that is good.
Allison - you poor little kitten. I put the picture of you and Cathe as my screensaver. You guys are sooo cute.
Kara - I'm glad we got our rides arranged. I feel much better about that. Now we just need to figure out how we get Leanne.
Shannon - I too hope things get better with the co-worker. There is nothing worse than that. A lady who worked in my office when I first started hated my guts. She used to go through my desk and stuff all the time. So glad she moved.
Hey Deb and Robin - hope you are having a good day.
Breckie - Hey kitten.
Shelley - Hope you are feeling better.
Kristi - Hope your day is going well too. Your picture with you and Cathe is gorgeous.
BBL kittens. I have a dreamy date with Coach Sean.
Leanne - Holy Crap. Bet that was a little scary. Glad everything is okay. I ordered some of that oatmeal. It sounds yummy.
Tneah - Sorry about the house guest being in your gym. At least he is nice though, huh.
Lainie - you look so pretty. Quit being down on yourself.
I am going to do a CC because I did not do enough this morning. I was so tired with Tayler coughing half the night. She seemed a lot better when I picked her up from the Y after work though, so that is good.
Allison - you poor little kitten. I put the picture of you and Cathe as my screensaver. You guys are sooo cute.
Kara - I'm glad we got our rides arranged. I feel much better about that. Now we just need to figure out how we get Leanne.
Shannon - I too hope things get better with the co-worker. There is nothing worse than that. A lady who worked in my office when I first started hated my guts. She used to go through my desk and stuff all the time. So glad she moved.
Hey Deb and Robin - hope you are having a good day.
Breckie - Hey kitten.
Shelley - Hope you are feeling better.
Kristi - Hope your day is going well too. Your picture with you and Cathe is gorgeous.
BBL kittens. I have a dreamy date with Coach Sean.
lainiefig
Cathlete
I’m just sittin’ here watching Ghost Hunters and waiting for the hubby to get home from Toronto. His plane will hopefully have landed by now and he’ll be in the car heading this way.
Thank you all for being so kind about my fatness. I’m very disappointed in myself. It’s not so much my looks but my unfitness that is distressing pre-RT. But I know I’m probably still more fit than a lot of other women at my weight (or so I tell myself).
Kara, you’re cracking me up with your whip-cracking comment. You know us so well already.
Tneah, hope you have a higher energy day tomorrow. I have way too many low energy days myself (as you know).
Leanne, yeah, I’m sure Brian will be happy when I’m done shopping in preparation for the RT. I got some new pj’s at Kohl’s (I keep trying new pj’s for the RT and can’t decide so I ordered another set). I also got a couple new sports bras (can never have enough of those). Then from Nike I got these:
I hope they fit o.k. because there won’t be time to exchange!
Kristi, glad to see you back—sometimes it’s hard to check in every day!
Peggie, hope you had a nice date with Coach Sean.
Well, DH just got home and he seems to be in a grumpy mood. Ugh.
Thank you all for being so kind about my fatness. I’m very disappointed in myself. It’s not so much my looks but my unfitness that is distressing pre-RT. But I know I’m probably still more fit than a lot of other women at my weight (or so I tell myself).
Kara, you’re cracking me up with your whip-cracking comment. You know us so well already.
Tneah, hope you have a higher energy day tomorrow. I have way too many low energy days myself (as you know).
Leanne, yeah, I’m sure Brian will be happy when I’m done shopping in preparation for the RT. I got some new pj’s at Kohl’s (I keep trying new pj’s for the RT and can’t decide so I ordered another set). I also got a couple new sports bras (can never have enough of those). Then from Nike I got these:
I hope they fit o.k. because there won’t be time to exchange!
Kristi, glad to see you back—sometimes it’s hard to check in every day!
Peggie, hope you had a nice date with Coach Sean.
Well, DH just got home and he seems to be in a grumpy mood. Ugh.