Julie, I completely relate to miscarriage taking the innocence out of pregnancy! My first pregnancy was textbook from start to almost-finish. I think miscarriage crossed my mind maybe once, but not in any way that caused me stress. When I miscarried my second pregnancy, it really took the wind out of my sails. The baby had been dead for about 2 weeks before my body aborted it. We'd even had an ultrasound about 2 days before the baby died, and all looked well. It was hard to live with the fact that my baby had died and I didn't know it! It's made me much more worried with this pregnancy; I feel like I have zero control over the survival of my child, and that is a really hard fact to live with. I'm sure you can relate to that, hey? I really hope that you have a successful pregnancy!!
With this pregnancy I had an ultrasound at 10 1/2 weeks, and all looked perfect. I finally started to relax and get excited. Then about 12 hours after the u/s I started bleeding really heavy. The shock was enormous. I'm on bedrest until my u/s next week. An u/s done on the day I started bleeding indicated that sometime between the two u/s (24 hours apart) a very large pool of blood had accumulated in the uterus. The baby was still moving vigorously, and appears to have been unaffected. The doctor isn't 100% sure what the blood is from, but is presuming a worst-case scenario, where the placenta tore a bit from the uterine wall. The bleeding stopped within 24 hours, and I've been fine for 2 weeks, but still, until I see the u/s next week and hear that the blood has been reabsorbed and all appears to be well, I won't truly relax. Plus, I haven't been able to exercise - which is how I deal with stress! I'm really hoping she'll give me the green light to resume some low-impact activity and light weight work. My poor brain needs the therapy!
Oh yes, I'm popped already LOL! I'm not into maternity clothes yet, but living in my sweat pants. Being couch-bound for the past two weeks has definitely caused some excess weight gain, as well. My belly is quite rounded. Old Navy has quite a few maternity capris, have you checked them out? My first daughter was born in mid-July, so I still have a whole wardrobe of summer dresses. I need to buy some pants, though. I'll do that once the doc tells me it's okay to be on my feet for more than a few minutes at a time.
I look forward to hearing about your u/s in a couple of weeks! It's such a hard wait, isn't it?
Cheers!
Sandra
