endorphin_junkie
Cathlete
About 6 weeks ago I went to my family doctor because when I swallow it feels as if I am swallowing around something, it's always there and feels like a mass. There is a feeling of pressure in my chest and try as I may to be rational the dreaded anxiety cascade began('stinkin' thinkin'' or 'rot thought' as I call it). I was widowed years ago and began to worry deeply that my children (15, 13 and 9)may be orphaned, my aunt died of sinus cancer and irrational fear of that crept into my psyche. I kept it to myself for weeks and then shared it with my best friend which helped a lot. I have felt like such a hyprocrite during the relaxation/meditation portion of the yoga classes I teach. I guide the students through this process and all the while my mind is racing and mulling things beyond my control (the antithesis of meditation). Over the past month I have been under going a series of tests to get to the source of the problem, I had an upper GI x-ray (had to drink a strange brew of chalky stuff and barium, made me positively glowing) all was normal, I had an EKG and stress test last week (tickers working beautifully), yesterday I had my sinuses frozen and a fibre optic viewing device inserted for a peek inside and down my throat. The Ear Nose Throat doctor did a thorough check and assured me that it is not cancer and that I am experiencing muscle spasms in the strap muscles around my throat.
I am so completely relieved and feel rejuvinated (end of mid-life crisis!!). I was so unsettled that I didn't even know if I should pre order the new workouts but that is history, I gotta go find my credit card NOW!! Thanks for letting me bend your ears (?eyes?)
Take Care
Laurie
(edited for spelling)
I am so completely relieved and feel rejuvinated (end of mid-life crisis!!). I was so unsettled that I didn't even know if I should pre order the new workouts but that is history, I gotta go find my credit card NOW!! Thanks for letting me bend your ears (?eyes?)
Take Care
Laurie
(edited for spelling)
