Finding my way back.........

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Teddygirl

Cathlete
Hi everyone.

Remember Me ;o)

It has been a long time since I posted or talked to you guys. I hope all is well with you guys. I know most of you remember me.

Okay here it is…..

1. Last workout 9/16/04… a day before BD.
2. Shortly after, went into a deep depression lost 15 Lbs (can’t go into detail at this time)
3. Started smoking again haven’t smoked in 20 years.
4. Quit smoking yesterday…and ate all day……….lunges feel much better
5. Diet shot to Hell, I mean shot…
6. I stopped taking my vitamins. I stopped taking pride in myself.
7. No water in weeks/months…
8. I look like ####
9. I’m looking older / winkles under my eyes from crying all day all night…
10. Not feeling sexy at all
11. Skin has broken out.
12. Stayed away from family and friends. To embarrass didn’t want anyone to see me like this.
13. I am 48 seems to me I was a sexy 48 now just 48 ;o) ;o)

I could go on and on…..Now I’m trying to find ME again. Believe me, I know the benefits in working out I have been working out for 20 years or more…..

I never went through anything like this in my life. I have been eating fast foods everyday just trying to get my weight back up. And, now weight 140lbs and very happy with that. I’d like to go back to 132/135 with exercising and proper eating as I have always done.

GOOD NEWS

I’m working out tonight……….I’m working out tonight, for the first time in 3 1/2 months.I’m so excited. I know I’m not going to make it through a complete tape. But I’m making the effort YEAH…
I’m starting to get sooooooooo exited about it.. What happened to me I REALLY DON’T KNOW. But your support has always helped and encourage me. Thanks for listening.’

I understand as we live from day by day, #### does happen And maybe this was my time I don’t understand it. But I just want to find my way back.

Teddygirl~
 
Hi Teddygirl, glad to have you back with us and yep I do rememeber ya... glad your doing better now:7 Rhonda
 
Hi Teddygirl,
I know it is easier said than done one day at a time. Sometimes life can be filled with unsuspecting problems that can really bring us down. Chin Up move forward. I myself suffer from bouts of depression and it can be crippling.
Don't focus on the negative move on. I call exercising my mental house cleaning. It keeps me in check. Stay on track.

Best to you,
Susan
 
Aww, Teddygirl--Big hugs.

I hate to use the word, but at this age (I am 50, so I know) could this be the big M? (menopause...........:eek: :-( ) I have been at it for about 6 years and can tell you--because I've fallen off the fitness wagon and climbed back on---the working out really helps. Whether the depression is big-M or not. I don't know how I'd have gotten this far without it.

As Susan said--mental housecleaning. Emotional, too! Good luck and prayers on your climb back on. It will amaze you how good (albeit sore) you'll feel. Keep the advil handy. :+
 
Teddygirl-

I don't know you (I don't think...LOL), but I wanted to send my voice of encouragement your way. You are facing the problem, and that's step one. Good for you. As someone else said already, one day at a time.

Personally, from I just came out of a horrible 18 month stretch and I have reached the light at the end of my tunnel. Besides my beautiful boys, exercise/Cathe is the one thing that got me thru the toughest days.

Hang in there and go slow. Welcome back!

Gayle
 
I wasn't around to know you before but welcome back. I just wantd to add if you've been exercising for 20 years your muscles will remember. They'll bounce back! It'll happen!

Trish
 
Teddygirl~
Welcome back - Hang in there - Keep checking back with us - We're here for you - We all care more than this simple post can convey...
~ Kim
 
Teddygirl,
I am new here so I don't know you yet but I wanted to send you a big hug! I have gone through some rough patches in the past and I feel for you ... the good thing is that you're getting back on track and exercise is such a great thing for both the body and mind!
Take Care and let us know how you are doing!
Hang in there!
Cathy :)
 
Hi Teddygirl,

I am glad things are starting to look better and you are getting back into your exercise. It will help. Take one day at a time and Welcome Back!!!

Beverly
 
Teddygirl...keep your chin up.

It's really important for you to realize that most of us have been there too (especially the older ones:) )

Obviously, I don't know what your personal situation is but you will get through it. I remember a time in my life where I literally cried every single day for two full years. I was absolutely distraught, mad at the entire world and everyone in it. Little did I know that all that crying was the beginning of a new and much, much better, more fulfilling and exciting life. The situation that I was crying about.... actually turned out to be the biggest blessing I have ever received.
 
Thank you so much guys. You don’t know how much each and everyone of your comments, concerns & suggestions means to me (((HUGS)))

I’ve began today, taken the road back to find Latrese again. I even went on my lunch today to the health and grocery store. Buying the healthy things that I’ve always kept in my home. Honestly, my frig has been so empty I haven’t stepped in a grocery store in months. Breakfast, lunch & dinner has been lately fast foods. When I was able to eat. Now I know why my face has broken out, duh!

For the past ten years or more, I've always prepare my breakfast, lunch, mid dinner & dinner, I usually eat 4/5 small meals a day.

Lately, my co-workers has never saw me eat the things they've seen me eat every single day, really. It was only because I had gotten so skinney, NO Butt, No Boobs, NOTHING. I looked like a toothpick.I was wearing over size sweaters, cuz I didn't want them to see how tiny I'd got. One or two notice and was very concern.

Heck, they could never get me out to lunch with them. I think in the 15 years I've been working here I probably went to lunch with them twice. They stopped asking. I have always been a focused person.....

Okay, day one, workout tonight. I was thinking about doing Step Heat it’s fun and not to hard. I shall see! And too, planning on drinking water as well. If I get 16/32 oz in today, while working out, that'd truly be a great accomplishment for me, really. I know it isn’t sh$$ when I am use to consuming 96 oz or more a day. I realize this is why I stay so so tired, I know this!

I can appreciate baby step right now. Because were I was mentally as well as physically I never would of thought, I’d end up like this. Thanks guys.

Now if someone could tell me how to get these winkles from under my eyes ;o) ;o) ;o)

Beverly, so glad to hear from you. Your pictures and that body is just awesome, you look great.

Rhonda, glad to here from you as well. How are you? Are you still doing the lower body routine? Pictures Pictures ;o) ;o)


Teddygirl~
 
Hey Teddygirl,

Glad you found your way back, you've been missed. As people have said, one day at a time, and we're with you every step.

Way to pull yourself up by your bootstraps. :)

Shopgirl
 
Hey shopgirl, I missed you to, and thank you. What have you been up to? Are you in any challenges?

I can’t wait to join one. I figure, I should be back to my fitness level within a month or less, I pray. I'll let you guys know how it went tomorrow. Take care ;o)

I really missed IMAX 1 and 2.

Teddygirl~
 
Hi Teddygirl!! I remember you for sure!!


I am so glad you have decided to come back to us! I have been going thru my own funk the last 8 months or so, trying to find my way back as well!


Ooohh, girl, when you do IMAX 2!! How much fun is that going to be after so much time off, huh?:) Take it slow and stay with us! We can try to help motivate you!

I hope you can find resolution to whatever you are going thru. I will keep you in my prayers!
 
Hi Teddygirl and Welcome back! Since I'm getting on late, maybe you've already done your workout and feeling on top of the world! :) :)

Jo
 
Welcome back. Congratulations on your good news!
I can imagine what you went through. I have bipolar disorder and have had long depressions as well as hipomanias. All I can say is that what one tells to oneself is very important. I hope you will always be fine, but if it happens to comeback (the depression) watch what you tell to yourself and tell yourself things that will make you feel better. You know, the kind of things you would tell to a person you love with all your heart. It is important to be aware and identify the first signs because that way you might even be able to prevent it from getting worse.

I hope my words are not offensive in any way, because I know most of us (persons) don't like unsolicited advice, and you are just sharing your experience and thanking us for listening.

Mariela

edited to say that I just realized that by BD, you meant birthday, not bipolar disorder! :eek: But the above applies anyway, to any person depressed for whatever reason.
 
Nice to see you back.I remember you:)
You can tell us what happened when you are ready.It must have been something serious to bring you down like this.
BUT you know what happens when you start working out.You will feel better about yourself.And you will look at everything in a new light.
Good Luck and keep us posted,
Lori:)
 
Teddygirl~
Blessings to you! Just posting on this forum is an indication that you are turning the corner in a positive direction. We are your friends here, and will encourage you all the way. Doing a workout today is a great choice!

(((((WELCOME BACK))))!

PS keep checking back! you can PM me ifyou like.
Judy
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