Heather and Pamela, thanks for the prayers, Heather I did lose my mom, back in January plus, my bil was undergoing chemo for Non-Hodgins Lymphoma (he is now cancer free), my aunt was dying (in the hospital before my mom & not expected to live) but is somewhat better now (all this was going on before and while my mother was in the hospital and later died). My mom went into the hospital after my aunt was sent home on hospice care.
Our house is in a constant state of renovation and we are out of money to fix it and our construction loan comes due in June. I have had no kitchen for almost a year now, we still have one room to gut, and others to finish with paint, flooring, cabinets, carpet, trim, lighting, and electrical fixtures. We have lived liked this for over 3 years to this extent at least but in varying states since we bought the house 9 years ago.
I am looking at going back to work because we need the money to help with the house, and I homeschool my boys so I have to have a evening job because I really don't want to put them in public school.
It is just one thing after another and I can't honestly take much more. My dh is depressed over it all, and I can't tell him that I am depressed also otherwise that will put him in even more of a glum mood and if we both aren't happy then we will have a very unhappy household and while I know it isn't good for me to keep it bottled up inside I can't afford for my dh to become more depressed and down than he already is. I therefore exercise to help myself with the depression and while it is becoming increasingly hard to exercise I am still managing most days to do it.
Sorry this is now a novel of my life but I honestly have no female friends to talk to so I will spill my guts here.
Thanks for listening anybody who has read this far.
I did PUB up only today with abs off of All Step and then did the 8 min. Taebo for a short cardio.
Edited to add: My oldest son has also just been diagnosis with scoliosis and we are facing years in a brace with him. He is 13.5 and could use the prayers while he deals with this. He is scheduled for an MRI on Thursday to rule out any other causes for his rapidly increasing curvature.
Thanks again!!