allwildgirl
Cathlete
Since everyone seemed so eager for the other breakdown thread to be about mental breakdowns, I thought I'd start one.
So, let's hear about yours
So, let's hear about yours
Complete MENTAL breakdowns...:P
- Thread starter allwildgirl
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Oh, me me me can I go?!!!!
I have been crazy busy at work and today I was trying to put project related papers in the fridge and my lunch in my mail slot! Then I walked right into the office next to mine thinking it was mine . . . it sure surprised the guy who occupies it when I almost sat right in his lap! :+
I have been crazy busy at work and today I was trying to put project related papers in the fridge and my lunch in my mail slot! Then I walked right into the office next to mine thinking it was mine . . . it sure surprised the guy who occupies it when I almost sat right in his lap!
:+
nancy324
Cathlete
I wanna go!
I've been working on an estate tax return for the last several weeks with incompetent appraisers and it's crunch time cuz the tax is due next week. If I make a mistake, it could cost the client millions. EEEKK! I'm so stressed, I'm somatizing and my eyelids are all inflamed and the moisture from my inflamed eyelids is now settling into my cheeks and making me look like a monster. x(
Thank you Shelley!
-Nancy
I've been working on an estate tax return for the last several weeks with incompetent appraisers and it's crunch time cuz the tax is due next week. If I make a mistake, it could cost the client millions.
EEEKK! I'm so stressed, I'm somatizing and my eyelids are all inflamed and the moisture from my inflamed eyelids is now settling into my cheeks and making me look like a monster. x( Thank you Shelley!
-Nancy
Well, I'll start. I haven't posted in a very, very long time, but this seems an appropriate thread for me to begin again . I was just thinking today about how I'm on the brink of a mental breakdown.
For the past 7 months I've been dealing with an ex-boyfriend who is not taking the "ex" position well at all. He is threatening me, the man I am dating now, and himself. This has been going on nonstop since the first few weeks of the breakup. I think the worst part is not knowing for sure exactly whether or not he's really capable of anything. Sometimes I want to believe he's all talk, other times I'm afraid. I work at my college in the fitness center by myself, and my mother is so afraid for me that she sits in the parking lot during my entire shift to watch out for me. I don't leave my house at all except to bee-line directly somewhere. I don't walk, run, go shopping, or do anything outside of work and home.
On top of everything, I had to put down my feline baby of 17 years this Sunday. It was heartbreaking as he was doing so well, but suddenly went into kidney failure.
The constant pressure and anxiety have taken a toll finally, and I feel like I can hardly function. I can't seem to have a normal conversation. I just want to lash out at everybody when I actually talk to people. This week has been the worst, though. I'm hoping that this level of anxiety goes away soon.
Sara
. I was just thinking today about how I'm on the brink of a mental breakdown. For the past 7 months I've been dealing with an ex-boyfriend who is not taking the "ex" position well at all. He is threatening me, the man I am dating now, and himself. This has been going on nonstop since the first few weeks of the breakup. I think the worst part is not knowing for sure exactly whether or not he's really capable of anything. Sometimes I want to believe he's all talk, other times I'm afraid. I work at my college in the fitness center by myself, and my mother is so afraid for me that she sits in the parking lot during my entire shift to watch out for me. I don't leave my house at all except to bee-line directly somewhere. I don't walk, run, go shopping, or do anything outside of work and home.
On top of everything, I had to put down my feline baby of 17 years this Sunday. It was heartbreaking as he was doing so well, but suddenly went into kidney failure.
The constant pressure and anxiety have taken a toll finally, and I feel like I can hardly function. I can't seem to have a normal conversation. I just want to lash out at everybody when I actually talk to people. This week has been the worst, though. I'm hoping that this level of anxiety goes away soon.
Sara
endorphin_junkie
Cathlete
I want to have a breakdown in front of the mechanic that has been holding my car hostage for 3 days!! Sunday afternoon they tell me 'it'll be ready by 5:00', whoops, not so Then it's 'Monday by noon for sure', wrong again Honey. Later on Monday they call, 'we need a part it'll be here Tuesday, 'Okayyy FINE!' Tuesday morning, 'part's here, it'll be ready by 2:00', I call at 11:45 to see how it's going, 'oh, the mechanic's just getting started!' GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR........I get a call this afternoon, 'the part was defective, we'll get another tomorrow' AAAAARRRRGGGHHHHHHHH. Then he asks me if I want them to go ahead with the work, LIKE I HAVE A CHOICE!!!! I told him 'ya kinda have me by the proverbial balls, just do the work'. He laughed, I didn't........x( :+ x(
Too FUNNY!! While I've been sitting here the phone rang, I pick up and it's Cerebral Palsy Foundation to see if I have anything to donate. I tell him I've moved then he asks me if my phone # has changed, 'well sir, you called ME! '. I hang up and within 2 minutes he calls again with his schpeel and I say, 'you just called me a few minutes ago, did you miss me?:7
These are a few of the reasons I HATE THE PHONE!!!!!!!! hmmmmm, it was good to get that out.....end of mental breakdown!
Take Care
Laurie
Too FUNNY!! While I've been sitting here the phone rang, I pick up and it's Cerebral Palsy Foundation to see if I have anything to donate. I tell him I've moved then he asks me if my phone # has changed, 'well sir, you called ME!
'. I hang up and within 2 minutes he calls again with his schpeel and I say, 'you just called me a few minutes ago, did you miss me?:7 These are a few of the reasons I HATE THE PHONE!!!!!!!! hmmmmm, it was good to get that out.....end of mental breakdown!
Take Care
Laurie
Yikes, Sara! I was going to post about the fact that the woman who previously owned my house had never met a sponge (there's dirt everywhere!) but I won't, after reading yours. I hope there is an end in sight for you. Have you talked to the police?
Sparrow
Life is not a journey to the grave with the intention of arriving safely in a pretty and well preserved body, but rather to skid in sideways, thoroughly used up, totally worn out, and loudly proclaiming ‘Wow - what a ride!’ — Peter Sage
Sparrow
Life is not a journey to the grave with the intention of arriving safely in a pretty and well preserved body, but rather to skid in sideways, thoroughly used up, totally worn out, and loudly proclaiming ‘Wow - what a ride!’ — Peter Sage
endorphin_junkie
Cathlete
((((Sara))))) So sorry about your Kitty, what a sad loss at a very trying time in your life. I can't imagine living with that kind of fear and my heart goes out to you. You ex is obviously in need of serious help. It can't be easy but it can't go on like this, you need to call the police and initiate some kind of end to his intimidation and threats. God Bless you, I will be thinking of you and I wish you peace and strength.
Take Care
Laurie
Take Care
Laurie
bjbowers
Cathlete
Absolutely 100% agree that you need to contact the police if you haven't already. Don't bother wasting time wondering if he really could be serious with his threats. Big (((hugs)))) to you and stay safe. Post anytime to vent, and please keep us updated.
ETA: I'm so sorry about your kitty as well, I know that's so hard.
Brandi
ETA: I'm so sorry about your kitty as well, I know that's so hard.
Brandi
Sara, good lord, have you filed a police report at least??? There are anti-stalker laws and you should at the very least have a restraining order against this guy. NEVER ASSUME someone is all talk. Particularly if it was all those months ago and he is still bothering you. Can you stop taking his calls? Do you carry mace? Have you taken a self-defense course? Please, take care of yourself.
Marie
Marie
My story is not nearly so serious as anyone else's, but I am heading into week #2 with my vertigo in full swing and I can't find one freaking doctor who will take me seriously (except Michele's husband, so maybe I will pretend I'm under 14 and fly to Ohio). This is how desperate I am: today I found a bottle of antibiotics left over from one of my children's illnesses and I have self-prescribed, in the unlikely event it's only an ear infection.
I have not gone to the office in a week. My kid is graduating from 8th grade tomorrow. I can't drive and can't even walk the dog since the last time I nearly went flying into the street. Vertigo is THE single most bizarre thing I have ever experienced. I wish it on Sara's ex-boyfriend!
Marie
I have not gone to the office in a week. My kid is graduating from 8th grade tomorrow. I can't drive and can't even walk the dog since the last time I nearly went flying into the street. Vertigo is THE single most bizarre thing I have ever experienced. I wish it on Sara's ex-boyfriend!
Marie
allwildgirl
Cathlete
Sara, my heart goes out to you. You MUST call the police, in the event that the threats are not idle. I once had a boyfriend that stalked me for a year, calling me at home, telling me he knew I still loved him and that we were destined to be together. The worst part of it was the he WAS a police officer. Please, tell the authorities about the issues with your ex-. You shouldn't have to live in fear. Also, I'm so sorry about your cat. It's so awful to lose a friend like that.
My story pales in comparison. I have raging PMS, an infection I'd rather not divulge the details of, and Sunday will be three years since my Mom passed away. I plan on staying home, crying a lot and throwing things out.
My story pales in comparison. I have raging PMS, an infection I'd rather not divulge the details of, and Sunday will be three years since my Mom passed away. I plan on staying home, crying a lot and throwing things out.
melodygirl
Cathlete
OK, I'm crazy, but I'm safe, so I won't post my pathetic stories. I will go along with everyone and tell Sara to contact the police immediately. And to continue to be very careful.
{{{{{{HUGS}}}}}
BTW, one of my insane stories (today's) does include the statement being yelled, "Mom, he hit me with the turkey baster."
{{{{{{HUGS}}}}}
BTW, one of my insane stories (today's) does include the statement being yelled, "Mom, he hit me with the turkey baster."
>My story is not nearly so serious as anyone else's, but I am
>heading into week #2 with my vertigo in full swing and I can't
>find one freaking doctor who will take me seriously (except
>Michele's husband, so maybe I will pretend I'm under 14 and
>fly to Ohio). This is how desperate I am: today I found a
>bottle of antibiotics left over from one of my children's
>illnesses and I have self-prescribed, in the unlikely event
>it's only an ear infection.
>
>I have not gone to the office in a week. My kid is graduating
>from 8th grade tomorrow. I can't drive and can't even walk the
>dog since the last time I nearly went flying into the street.
>Vertigo is THE single most bizarre thing I have ever
>experienced. I wish it on Sara's ex-boyfriend!
>
>Marie
Marie, what have the doctors said? Gosh, why wouldn't they take that seriously?!
Sparrow
Life is not a journey to the grave with the intention of arriving safely in a pretty and well preserved body, but rather to skid in sideways, thoroughly used up, totally worn out, and loudly proclaiming ‘Wow - what a ride!’ — Peter Sage
>heading into week #2 with my vertigo in full swing and I can't
>find one freaking doctor who will take me seriously (except
>Michele's husband, so maybe I will pretend I'm under 14 and
>fly to Ohio). This is how desperate I am: today I found a
>bottle of antibiotics left over from one of my children's
>illnesses and I have self-prescribed, in the unlikely event
>it's only an ear infection.
>
>I have not gone to the office in a week. My kid is graduating
>from 8th grade tomorrow. I can't drive and can't even walk the
>dog since the last time I nearly went flying into the street.
>Vertigo is THE single most bizarre thing I have ever
>experienced. I wish it on Sara's ex-boyfriend!
>
>Marie
Marie, what have the doctors said? Gosh, why wouldn't they take that seriously?!
Sparrow
Life is not a journey to the grave with the intention of arriving safely in a pretty and well preserved body, but rather to skid in sideways, thoroughly used up, totally worn out, and loudly proclaiming ‘Wow - what a ride!’ — Peter Sage
Hey guys; thanks so much for the kind words. Yes, the police have been involved several times. Several reports and a few incidences. No actual restraining order yet, even though all police officers are behaving as though I do have one (it's a pretty small town). We figured that would just send him off the deep-end and REALLY create problems. But I'm doing my best. I will probably be quitting this job soon (even though I love it to death) as the anxiety from being alone and vulnerable is too much.
It all breaks my heart, too, because I had been in turmoil and extraordinarily depressed about leaving him for a very long time prior to the breakup. I knew I couldn't stay, but I so couldn't stand breaking his heart. I almost did make the sacrifice and stay, though, just to keep from hurting him. He thinks, though, that I am a careless, evil human being and everything I do is to hurt him intentionally.
All communication now is through e-mail. I don't write back. He does come into work occassionally, but the entire school watches out for me. The man I am dating is a teacher here, and my ex is also actively working to have him fired. So everybody is informed of what's going on one way or another. We have a wonderful security staff, too!
Marie, I'm so sorry about the vertigo. I've had very short bouts of it, and it never fails that I am vomiting for days afterwards because my stomach is so sensitive to that. I hope it is simply an ear infection and gets better! Mine was due to excess wax at one point and I had to have large amounts of it removed.
It all breaks my heart, too, because I had been in turmoil and extraordinarily depressed about leaving him for a very long time prior to the breakup. I knew I couldn't stay, but I so couldn't stand breaking his heart. I almost did make the sacrifice and stay, though, just to keep from hurting him. He thinks, though, that I am a careless, evil human being and everything I do is to hurt him intentionally.
All communication now is through e-mail. I don't write back. He does come into work occassionally, but the entire school watches out for me. The man I am dating is a teacher here, and my ex is also actively working to have him fired. So everybody is informed of what's going on one way or another. We have a wonderful security staff, too!
Marie, I'm so sorry about the vertigo. I've had very short bouts of it, and it never fails that I am vomiting for days afterwards because my stomach is so sensitive to that
. I hope it is simply an ear infection and gets better! Mine was due to excess wax at one point and I had to have large amounts of it removed.>Marie, what have the doctors said? Gosh, why wouldn't they
>take that seriously?!
Sparrow, I went to the ER and had a cat scan, EKG, chest x-rays, bloodwork, a urinalysis and anything else you can think of, only to be told that there is nothing wrong with me and I am in perfect health (as I lay there cringing from the spinning world around me). They gave me an anti-vert and enough valium to be pleasantly stoned for a day which was certainly an improvement, but only temporary.
I called my regular doctor, who thinks the issue is an over-reaction to a prescription med I was taking. SHE said I should discontinue the meds (already had) and then wait a few weeks and start taking them again, to see if they caused the problem!! I had to nearly bite through my tongue to keep from asking her what it was like graduating at the bottom of her class.
Anyway, my ENT's office can't schedule me until August without a referral from idiot doctor above. There is no point in going back to the ER since I'm sure they think I'm just an addict with a tendency toward drama. Ugh. Not good.
I'm sorry for everyone else's drama!
>take that seriously?!
Sparrow, I went to the ER and had a cat scan, EKG, chest x-rays, bloodwork, a urinalysis and anything else you can think of, only to be told that there is nothing wrong with me and I am in perfect health (as I lay there cringing from the spinning world around me). They gave me an anti-vert and enough valium to be pleasantly stoned for a day which was certainly an improvement, but only temporary.
I called my regular doctor, who thinks the issue is an over-reaction to a prescription med I was taking. SHE said I should discontinue the meds (already had) and then wait a few weeks and start taking them again, to see if they caused the problem!! I had to nearly bite through my tongue to keep from asking her what it was like graduating at the bottom of her class.
Anyway, my ENT's office can't schedule me until August without a referral from idiot doctor above. There is no point in going back to the ER since I'm sure they think I'm just an addict with a tendency toward drama. Ugh. Not good.
I'm sorry for everyone else's drama!
melodygirl
Cathlete
{{{{{{HUGS}}}}}} to you Marie.
I certainly hope you get relief. Maybe try calling your Dr. and asking for that referral. You never know, she just might give it to you, if she understands how that works being she graduated at the bottom of her med school class.:+
I certainly hope you get relief. Maybe try calling your Dr. and asking for that referral. You never know, she just might give it to you, if she understands how that works being she graduated at the bottom of her med school class.:+