Oh my, what a day. Was hurting a bit last night after the massage (a good hurt), so DH and I took a short walk to get my mind off of it. Then laid down and it felt good yet good hurt. She is talking about maybe massaging just 1st layer of muscle in neck next as it's contributing to the other pain.
Now I'm going to paste stuff on this crappy day I had, but in the end I think I'm getting what help I need.
part 1:
Wake up, muscles hurt where Christy worked them, I think a good hurt, but still dive to the valiuum to help relieve the hurt.
Day 2 of Hilarie gone, and I am delegated status meeting---wtf, how am I to know status when I work so little time? Why not the girl doing most of the work on this project? So, I don't call in. I get pinged that they need status on something, I explain how I don't know any status since I'm part time, they say, Wow (whatever that means), maybe someone else should do it, I say I couldn't get anyone to take it. So I get on call, they say, for change number xyz, blaah, blah, blah for about 2 min, remember I'm on valiumm, I say, what was the change number? They say we will take it offline. Turns out it was my SR, should we add the creation of a table to it even though it's past DB phase, I say add it, but move back to DB (they don't like doing that messes with their metric numbers for how well we do....well, I'm not working off of emails....remember I'm on valiuum). I get stressed still, shoulders start hurting, grab chocolate, it's choc covered espresso beans, hmmm, that's not good for a BP check, better balance it out, ask Nikki for alcohol, she comes up with a shot of gummy flavored vodka.
How do you think today's dr visit will go?
No matter how hard I try not to stress, I stress over how STUPID these people are. and the stupid biz practice, I even said, mgmt didn't prepare for Hilarie to leave let them get what they created, a mess.
Oh, also this person said I probably would become team lead, THANKFULLY I'm not, they went to Brazil guy who started same time as me, otherwise it would have been me had I not had medical issues
laters.....I'm running late, another stress factor for my BP, yea me!
part 2: after dr visit
I was a mess at dr. bp 164/90. Then the dr comes in asks why I"m there, I explain i just need muscle relaxer because NS won't renew, my muscles hurt and NS said to see PCP. She asked why do you think that is, I said I don't know, a policy or something? She kept prodding, then I lost it, feeling like she was another one that didn't get it. Well she did, I just had to spill my guts. She validated evertything said I would be going thru this for months, has treated some of dr rajpal patients and this is all normal. Feeling like you want to get back to normal yet you can't, you just hurt, add on stupid work. Told her it's driving me crazy not to be able to exercise, that it took 4 hrs for a hike that normally took me 1.5 hrs, asked why because of the pain? I said more because of how far I've fallen in my health and cardio, but yea, I did have pain, just forgot. She was glad I found a good massage person, especially when I explained how she is working in layers of the muscles.
So, I get more BP med, if I have another day like today to take a 2nd dose. I get valiuum, she had asked why that instead of the robaxin I was on after surgery, I said it seemed to help relax me more and she validated it, especially for type a people.
I also got an medicine that is supposed to help with pain perception, in a class of anti-depressants....cymbalta and then also deplin to help aid that drug work better.
Depression, or Anxiety, or Chronic Pain Medication - Cymbalta (duloxetine delayed-release capsules)
Deplin: A 'medical food' that treats depression | Fox News
So next Wed when that work status mtg is held I decided I'm logging off the system so they can't find me. Screw them. I need to protect myself. Hilarie is dumping all her unfinished stufff (this is in prod somehow but not in UAT, here is the request....ugh, I'm not following up, if you would have followed a process to begin with it wouldn't be like this!
YOu know it's hard for me to drop the ball like that at work, but they asked for it, but it still is a detriment to my stress level
So, as far as exercise, I did 1.5 dog walk, and modified PT exercises.
Jody, so nice to see you pop in here. I can do #1 never #2 and hated doing the tampon thing knwing people could hear the rattling of the paper. See you gave us something to talk about. And you still need tampons? lucky you?
Ronne, I knew I wouldn't be able to do it so didn't feel the pressure, was just amazed how dancey. It would be hard for me to have done before my neck issue. I'd hear, now knees corner to corner, and I'd think, oh I can do that! lol
Mary, I'll prob try RK too, just being careful of the hooks. I gotta do something I"m going crazy if i don't.
SOrry for the copy/paste, just thought you all would want to know as you are my online BFFs. And hopefully I didn't show my weaknesses too much, and maybe help someone out there.
