I wan't to make sure when chooshing a Yoga DVD it's allowing my body to recover but at the same time I wan't to make sure I'm burning calories and work on my strengh and not feel like I'm not doing anything. I know a week it's not a long time...I've been working out non stop for over 20 years and I've never made no excuses even through my 5 pregnancies (6) kids and imidiately doing some form of a workout imideately after having my children.
Lourdes
No, this is not it. Choosing a yoga video for you has nothing to do with burning calories and building strength. That isn't the point. You don't need power yoga. You need something for flexibility, relaxation, stress relief because you are wound so tight you will not allow yourself time off. The fact that you think allowing your body to recover from pregnancy and childbirth is tantamount to "making excuses" makes that clear. So, the fact that I took time to recover from my pregnancies and childbirth makes me a loser in your eyes? That I was making excuses? Do you see the implications of your current mind set on fitness and exercise? You are judging yourself and everyone else.
I am going to suggest to you that your problem is not physical, it is psychological. You drive yourself too hard, it is on a par with physical, self-punishment. Why do you think you cannot take time off, that your ind and body don't need it and don't deserve it?
This is a type of exercise bulimia and it isn't making you healthy. Or happy either, I imagine.
Please consider doing some research on this issue and reading and perhaps consulting a therapist, to see how you fit this pattern, to try to find out why you are punishing yourself and how you can lead a happier, healthier life.
The first step is to get beyond the denial. Denial that you do indeed fit this pattern. Hopefully, the fact that you have come here to seek help in a public forum will help you overcome denial. You have asked for help because there is a problem here to resolve.
I wish you luck on your journey. Certainly, there are women here on these forums who will understand and empathize.
Clare