Hello Warriors!
I am back from the dead (ok, at least the time warp I was in the last few weeks with work lol)
So as not to bore all of you too much with the details of the last few weeks, I will give the abbreviated bullet point version (can you tell I have been doing powerpoint slides lately? blah!) of the highlights....
1...Open enrollment is now finished! Hooray, its been a brutal couple of months and the health insurance industry is a nightmare (regardless of your political leanings, something needs to be done...not sure the current plan will help much, but even if it did, doesnt help for another few years)
But I survived and now I can get onto the 5 million other things that I should have been doing and the current doings at work...it never ends...
2...Survived the board meeting and doing my presentation. I had no idea what to expect and had to answer a bunch of tough questions, but I held my own, disagreed professionally when I needed to do so and explained my reasons why...and in the end they told my boss, who is the Pres/COO of the company, that my presentation, although not the point of the presenation at all, was the best case they have seen for adding staff to my department if they really want the changes that I spoke about to happen in the company. My boss is a really good man and we have a good relationship work wise, but he has been reluctant to give me people, so now that the board said it all on their own, I may make some progress. I already tease him about it at every opportunity.
Oh, I also survived the dress buying (tried on 40 or so dresses just to find one, it was pricier than I would like to have spent for one dinner and still had to have it emergency altered) but I actually felt good in it. Plus it actually can be altered pretty easily so as my sizes shrink so can it for future use. Heres the link...(oh and the model is not me just in case you were delusional for a second and thought so lol
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http://www.dillards.com/webapp/wcs/...301&productId=502588404&rr=true&catalogId=301
3...Finally had a very emotional long discussion in my relationship that needed be done. No resolution yet on exactly what we will end up doing which is tough, but at least we talked and are talking instead of me waiting and waiting and having discussions over and over in my own head. So at least it is making me feel a bit less stressed and able to feel like I am standing stronger in myself to get ready for whatever comes, good or not so good. And I dont have the constant knot in my stomach from it all.
4...Despite the stress of the last few weeks, I have actually managed to workout. I talked myself into starting most days as I knew I had to do it, for stress and tension relief if nothing else. Now I am starting to do it without fighting again. Even managed a few weight workouts too. There is just enough time to get in a STS rotation, undulating, I think before summer starts proper at the 4th of july, so I am going to give it a whirl starting tomorrow.
5...Last but not least...despite my being able to workout the last few weeks, my running really fell by the wayside, so last week I had reconciled myself to the fact that I would not be running my 5k yesterday because I just wasnt prepared mentally or physically. However, the little voice inside kept at me with the idea that I just needed to go do it anyway. Something to push myself through, just for me that had nothing to do with work or relationships. What was the worst that could happen, I would have to walk? Saturday I talked myself into going to at least pick up the pre-race packet and then I could decide what I wanted to do. So at 5:45 Sunday morning I was on the trolley going over the beach where the starting line was and then at 7 the 2000+ plus women doing the half-marathon started and then at 7:15 me and the other 2500+ women doing the 5k started. Somehow, someway, I actually did it! I ran all the way straight to the 1.5 mile water stop/turn around point, then walked for 2 min then ran the rest of the race. My time was 35 min even. Given that it was my first race with inadequate prep, my short stint of walking and the fact that you spent the first mile dodging slower runners and trying not to run over the walkers on the course (they were mixed with the runners, instead of having their own start time) which slowed the first mile or so considerably, it is a pretty good time for me. The main point is that I actually did it, for me, despite everything else and didnt even tell anyone that I did it until I showed them the medal.
Even now, there are only a handful of people IRL that know I did it and now all of you do.
http://www.irongirl.com/Events/Clearwater.htm#axzz1JGQ4DbVn
Also, bought a few things for the house, like new bed linens, towels, etc.. some simple stuff just to make things a little different and add some newness to things for myself.
So, in short, I am finding my way and trying to pull myself back from the abyss I had allowed to be created one day at a time. Hopefully will get in some days off as well in the next couple of months. Anyway, thanks for the support and concern along the way, even if I have been silent. I appreciate it.
It is good to see everyone doing well with workouts, lack of sugar, crazy dogs, crazy weather, crazy kids....I am very impressed
Alright, need to eat something and get my workout rotation planned for the rest of the week. Oh by the way, I am going to run another 5k in 5 weeks, going to try to prepare fully this time and see how I do and if I can get this running thing to really stick. Plus it is a smaller one that actually starts 2 blocks from my house.
Catch up again tomorrow. Good night.
