Where did my motivation go?

[amybmomofthree]

I have simply had the WORST month of eating since I started working out. I can't seem to get myself back on track, and I've gained 5(!!!!) pounds in a month. What motivates you to get back on track after a lapse from clean eating? I really enjoy eating well, and actually crave good foods, but it seems like once I've fallen off the wagon I'm doomed. Each day I wake up with new resolve to start over again, and by mid day something has stressed me to the point that I eat whatever sounds good at the moment. Then I never get back on track for the day, I just gorge myself on junk. I am beyond incredibly stressed right now with every kind of issue you can imagine. My mom had a tumor found in her abdomen on the 6th of Sept. and we just now got the "real" diagnosis yesterday. She has a huge leiomyosarcoma, and is looking at having her bladder and part of her pubic bone removed. The sress over that alone is enough to send me over the edge right into a bowl of ice cream. But on top of that, I've got the usual everyday financial worries, health issues of my own that aren't responding to treatment well, and I feel like I'm shouldering the whole load by myself. So I eat. And eat. And eat.

I'm still working out, but my motivation is sorely lacking and I miss it. I went to Target last night and bought the new Step package, so maybe that will do it for me. I'm trying to take each day as it comes. My goal for today is to COMMIT to clean eating and actually do it. How can I get myself back in my usual healthy mindset??????

 

[toastythemosty]

I am so sorry to hear about your mom. That is terrible, but I will be praying for her, o.k? I know when my DD was in the hospital and the doctor's threw around the word "cancer" I knew that this was the most important time for me to make sure my eating was healthy even though I didn't want to eat much at all or workout. You have to be strong during this time and good healthy food is just what you need. Feeding yourself healthy food will make you once again to feel good about yourself and it will give you the strength you need to focus and be there for your mom as well. Just do it!!!!! Don't think about it or analyze it...JUST DO IT!!!! Like brushing your teeth. You wouldn't let your teeth go or not shower so you have to think of it in these terms. You can have a treat, but just not everyday...maybe once a week or see if you can challenge yourself and go longer without one. Healthy treats like yogurt and protein bars are much better than anything with lots of sugar in it. And there is nothing wrong with eating just as long as you space your meals about 2 hours apart and eat healthy.

Charlotte~~

 

[Miss Lee]

I'm very sorry about your mom and everything else you're going through. Whoever said "when it rains it pours" really knew what they were talking about.

I don't have anything to add to what Charlotte has already posted. I think there is much wisdom in her advice. Please know that you and your mom are in my thoughts and prayers.

Michele

 

[DebbieH]

I'm so sorry. You have tons to deal with right now! I definitely will keep both you and your Mom in my thoughts & prayers. Chralotte had great ideas. I would also recommend that you keep up your eating but try to keep it healthy so you stay strong at this time. Maybe get rid of all "junk" and be sure to have lots of healthy options ready when you have your hunger/stress attacks. Drink lots of water and try to get a good night's sleep to get you thru the next day. Please keep us posted on how your Mom is doing and also, the new step pkg. is probably JUST the gift you need right now. Go pull it out and get started. Nothing motivates me more then a fun workout with Cathe & crew. Good Luck!
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[kellymom]

I just wanted to say that I know exactly what you're going through. A year ago my aunt was diagnosed with terminal pancreatic cancer and passed away two months later. My mother (who is my absolute best friend) was across the country for months taking care of her and her estate. We moved twice. It was a rough time.

I am a stress binger and all of that was more than I could handle and I gained ten pounds. I found myself in that vicious cycle of stress eating, beating myself up for it, and then stress eating because of that, etc. I'm finally losing the weight now, partially because of finding Cathe. I just want to say that what would have helped me the most was concentrating on NOT punishing myself for my lapses. I know that sounds easier than it is, but it avoids compounding the stress and making the eating worse. Find someone to talk to, or use the forums for support. Don't punish yourself for making a bad food choice! Also, Charlotte's advice is so true (but hard to stick to when you're overwhelmed, I know).

Just remember, you're not alone, there are tons of us who know exactly what you're saying.

Kelly

 

[pink_fortitude]

First of all, ((((((HUGS)))))) I know this must be incredibly troubling for you, and I am so sorry that you have to go through this. Truly. I will keep you in my prayers.

Secondly, Charlotte is so right. You also have to channel what you are feeling into something positive, like taking care of yourself. I am assuming that you are a mom (of three, right?) I bet that if something happened to you, you would be devistated if you knew that your kids, or just one of them, was stressing so badly over your condition that they stopped doing what was right for them. I bet your mom wants you to be healthy and strong, too. People who eat well and excercise and are healthy cope/handle stress better, period. You can join any of the checkins here for support and laughs and rants and advice and will be recieved with open arms!:7 I think that is a good way to get going, because then you know you are not alone, and you will feel better to know that you are not the only who struggles.

what is going on with your health? if you don't want to elaborate, that is okay, I want to offer you my support, anyways!

Missy