Good luck, Clare. I hope that 2016 is a better year for you. It sounds like you are already on the path to taking charge of how you deal with life's adversities. It's certainly easier said than done, that's for sure. It's a good reminder that, while we don't have complete control over all the things that happen to us or around us, we have more control than we think over how we react to those things. I have to remind myself of that frequently.
The video fitness community is generous. I had a complete stranger PM me once, offering to send me a couple of workouts to try since I had mentioned in a post that I was on the fence about getting them. Turns out I didn't like them, so in the end, I was only out the money needed to send them back to her.