Oh Jerry, thank you. I have good days and bad days. Lately there have been many, many more bad than good. Although yesterday was pretty nice. I felt calm and happy. But I do remember a few times yesterday when I caught myself sliding into a panic attack (and over small, silly things!) but managed to pull myself out. Funny how my best days are the days when I workout in the morning before work.
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Today I was just so tired, though when I woke up and my migraine is back and I couldn't get up. Of course, I have school until 10pm tonight right after work so I won't be able to workout today now which creates so much freakin' anxiety for me! I stress about everything--even the things that are supposed to be "stress reducers" like excercise!!!!!!!! It's a vicious cycle for me and I feel like I'm losing control. Seriously, I'm freaking out today.
I'm just so teary. I feel like there's so much on my plate right now and I'm not sure how to handle it. Paxil has taken care of the anxiety for so long (almost ten years) and now that I'm not on it anymore (it's taken me three--yes, THREE years to get off of it. It's sooooooo addictive) the anxiety is back and I have to figure out how to manage it. I'm sure I'll figure it out. I want to look into the Lexapro, though. I've been comparing the side effects of it to Paxil this morning and it doesn't sound nearly as bad as Paxil. The Cymbalta I'm taking now really helped offset the withdrawl symptoms of going off the Paxil but at this point it's not doing much good anymore since I'm really not all that depressed--I'm just anxious.
Wow. Sorry to spill all that here. I didn't mean to type that much but my fingers just kept moving.
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It feels good to get some of this out there. I do see a LCSW on and off and have made an appt. with her for Saturday to kind of see how to manage this and get all this stress off my chest. Sorry I kind of made you guys my "shrinks" for the day.