I understand perfectly, Laurie. As usual, you know exactly what's right for you. I'll be sending you big, juicy tamale vibes. And what a lucky tamale he will be! :7
Most women (or at least me ) have a lot of trouble getting into a physical relationship without getting emotionally involved. Just my personal opinion & certainly feel free to correct me if I'm wrong, but physical satisfaction seems to go hand in hand w/emotional satisfaction.
Amen Sister Laura!! Perhaps in my hazy party days a few decades ago I could 'scratch the itch' with Mr. Rightnow but no longer. I feel the same as you that physical satisfaction was never so good than with one who was there emotionally as well.
Laurie, I applaud you for being a strong girl. Sounds to me like you are a very SMART girl, not stupid at all (I know it was meant in jest, but still...) I hope you find the total package, someone with whom you will be the "only rider."
Awww, Laurie - I hope you're feeling maybe a little better! Sometimes it helps just to vent! I wish such happiness for you - I have faith that you'll find it (probably where you least expect it). We're all sending good vibes your way!