Lisa:
calm down, take a few deep breaths.........
It doesn't have to be an endless vicious cycle, DON'T GIVE IT THAT POWER!
This used to be me. I hardly ever ate anything during the day, so come night time, I ate my way through the cupboards in my kitchen, and like you, it was starchy food all the way.
I have realized that if I eat breakfast, it sets me up to eat better and more healthily all day. Not only that, but I am making sure that I include good quality protein sources at each meal, starting with two eggs for breakfast, and I am satisfied for longer. I no longer reach for the cookie jar every evening. In fact I can testify, that I have only had cookies on two days in the last two months, because the drive to cram my mouth fiull of ginger cremes is no longer there. Last night I had 4 of them and then put them away, didn't need any more. This is unheard of for me!
Not only that, but I have a pact with myself. If I want to eat after dinner, it has to be fruit first, because I am always trying to reach those 5 a day or even more a day, and also because I know that the natural sugars of fruit can help satify that need for sweetness, and also because they fill me up more and there's nothing I hate more than a groaning full tummy that puts me to sleep so I can't get my work done.
The next trick is to resist that nesting instinct that tells you to change into comfy pj's or dressing gown early in the evening. If you keep your street clothes on, preferably a slimline pair of pants/jeans that make you feel great, there will be less temptaion to eat crappy foods that might make them tighter!
Lisa, don't sweat it too much. Bingings and cravings prove you are human. We all do it.
Ask yourself also: has your diet been quite restrictive recently? If it has, it may be that you are going into overdrive to cram in just those foods that earlier you forbade yourself from having (is this why you feel "guilty"?). Especially if you know that you have to return to the restrictions again real soon once you begin being serious about your workouts again. If this is you, then perhaps it is time to be more realistic and instead of having a list of forbidden foods, allow yourself one nice treat of crappy food per day, so that nothing is labelled as "forbidden", thus setting it up as the ultimate "temptation." If I eat well and treat my body with respect, I know it can handle a little chocolate of an evening....and I know A-Jock has candies everyday and swears by them!
My mother always said, as did her mother before her, "a little of what you fancy does you good." And it sure will get rid of the "guilt." Tomorrow is another chance to be really healthy: make it so! (as Jean Luc Picard would say......)
All the best,
Clare